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Redraw some older stuff :/

A kinda cute/kinda creepy digital thing a did with my Oc: Monti😁

She only has a mouth, but wears a magic/tech. Hairbow that helps her show emotions!

"Please don't say you love me" by Gabrielle Aplin is a great song for Snufkin and Moomin, and I'm right.

Digital baby boy(Moomin)

Uhhhh, I haven't posted in a while....

But I've started watching the Moomins and Moomin is a very good boy(tm) so I started drawing him a bunch.

I just... love him?... so.... much????

I'm sick of this.

I am so fucking

Tired

Of feeling full of

Wires

I am so fucking

Sick

Of being filled with a fog so

Thick

That I can't think or

Breathe

And I am so fucking done

Of not feeling like

Enough

Not girly enough

Not boyish enough

Not happy enough

Not depressed enough

Not nervous enough

Not calm enough

Not formal enough

Not casual enough

Not warm enough

Not shy enough

Not

Fucking

Enough

I am

So

Fucking

Sick-

Tired-

Done.

Because this isn't enough.

My... baby??? Angel????? Sweet baby child??? I'm love her???????? Must protect???????????? Am mother????????

Ugghhh

Aaaaaaaah, I used up 4 pages of my journal last next while feeling shitty.

Regrrrrreeeeeettt thaaaaaaat sooooo muuuuuccchhhhh, uggggghhhhhhhhhhh

Whatever,, though, because scribbling mimicked scratching, so I did that instead, scribbling, I mean.

Hard rock from the 70s is soothing to my nephew??????(And me)

My dad and I have been listening to Slade and Quiet Riot with my 2 year old nephew.

Elijah(my nephew) just FELL ASLEEP while listening to "Bang Your Head(Metal Health)".

Eli, dude, how the fuck???

Two things rn.

Earlier today I had an appointment with a psychiatrist that works for my therapist. The appointment lasted 2 hours, at the end of which he gave me a prescription for Prozac, which I've decided to start tomorrow.

I know from experience that dying your hair with kool-aid is great if you want really bright hair until the end of time sooo... I've been thinking about dyeing my hair a rainbow, which would be awesome and I really wanna do it!

TL;DR: I'm going to start Prozac tomorrow and I wanna dye my hair a rainbow using kool-aid.

I started watching My Love Story and Damn am I gay for Yamato-san

She is so fucking cute and she /bakes/.

Like holy shit, she's so cute, I want her and Takeo-kun to get married and be happy forever because they deserve it, goddamn it!

Just kidding, the first session of teen group is tomorrow and I wanna make some friendos

Hey, my migraine is finally calming it’s tits!

TIME TO BLARE SOME FUCKING TUNES👍👍

Hey, my migraine is finally calming it's tits!

TIME TO BLARE SOME FUCKING TUNES👍👍

The snakey boi is now named Allistar and I love him.

Thanks to @brozkiie for the A++ name! Ily!

It's 6 am, I am not tired, but I have not slept.

What can I say?

I can be hella gay.

I suddenly remembered that Kill la Kill is a thing and i...

I started being rly gay and ranting about how hot the girls in it are.

But like, I'm not wrong, Ryuko is fucking hot.

WHAT THE FUCK, RAINBOW! THE FUCK DO YOU FUCKING MEAN "THIS WILL END IN FLAMES???" BITCH LIKE THE FUCK IT WILL, YOURE NOT HURTING MY BOYS! DONT YOU FUCKING TOUCH THEM!

I have some... feelings about the Carry on sequel that I have to wait two years for.

Atlas(my cat): *does something; (ex:headbutting, licking my ear, rubbing his his cheek on my face and hands)*

Me: *goolges what that behavior means*

Google: katt luv u!!!

Me, cuddling, scratching, petting and overall showing affection: omg!!!!! He like me!!!!!!!

I suddenly wanted to do a digital art so of course I went with my -currently- most prominent one, Alli! I don't know why the he'll I made her headband so fucking weird and girly. Digital art is really weird so everything just looked totally different then how it would on paper and it BOTHERS ME SO MUCH

A vry angry Alli wearing the outfit from her first design.

I recently got the first manga (in physical form) of Horimiya and it reminded me that that my OC Allison Clari (who I made years before I read Horimiya for the first time) is a lot like the MC Kyouko Hori...

From there I drew comparisons between my friend @brozkiie 's OC Mitchell Davis and the other MC Izumi Miyamura.

And finally I realised that their relationship dynamic is pretty similar to what I imagine Mitch and Alli's is like.

You know those paint chip thingys?

I want them.

I want to collect as many as I can for no reason!

I know, I know, I'm supposed to be cutting back on my collections but... I've always wanted to collect those and there is nothing actually stopping me!!!

Me: *finds a thing that i like that isnt problamatic unless taking out of context and given malicious intent through biased descriptions*

Person: *does that*

Me brain: you are no longer allowed to like this thing because if you do then you're a terrible person and your inevitable murder is justified because you'd deserve it.

Me: ... ok..

I got my diagnosis.

ODD(Oppositional Defiant)

OCD(Obsessive Complulsive)

ADHD/ADD(Attention Deficit)

GAD(General Anxiety)

SSAD(Severe Social Anxiety)

How many things can one person be, and still need further testing?

I'm feeling too disorderly.

Way does functional have to be normal?

Shrek: the best goddamn story ever.

Just reached Shrek: the musical on Netflix and it was just as amazing as when I watched it the first time.

Outside of memes and the general internet, Shrek is and always will be an incredible, beautiful story with an equally cheesy set of morals to be learned from it.

I just really like Shrek, ok. It's a great movie and I love it.

Me and my mom started a fairy garden, just cause and it includes my first succulent! The little tab from the store said it was called "hens and chicks" I think. I'm the one that got to set all of it up so far, it was really fun! We'll be expanding and adding stuff to it really soon!

This post claims to have 1 note but I'm pretty sure me posting it doesn't count. 🙃🐢🙃🐢

Encyclopedias

Of random/oddly specific topics: do they exist and where can I get them. Seriously, I want.

I want encyclopedias/books of/about:

-plants (specifically succulents, cacti, and sunflowers)

-animals (rabbits, cats, frogs, turtles, sheep, goats, snakes, and bees)

-clothes/fashion/trends (fuck me up with that character design material)

-art (just a fucking book about art history and shit because I fucking want one)

I just- I have some things I wanna learn about and they happen to be very strange and specific, ok.

Friend: *kills hinself*

My fucking, shit-brain: death? You like death?? You want some dreams of death??? Have some nightmares of people being mauled or run over! Have nightmares of your past friends and old teachers chasing you while tying to kill you!! Have a nightmare of your mom planing to kill you!!!

You LOVE death right?

Me: I'd rather die from exhaustion then sleep.

Brain: not good enough? Wanna imagine your nephew being murdering by someone gouging his eyes out?? Wanna imagine him falling down some stairs and smashing his head open??? I can do that! I'll even make you think about him being kidnapped!! Or maybe even just him suffocating in his sleep!!!

DONT YOU JUST L O V E DEATH???

Encyclopedias

Of random/oddly specific topics: do they exist and where can I get them. Seriously, I want.

I want encyclopedias/books of/about:

-plants (specifically succulents, cacti, and sunflowers)

-animals (rabbits, cats, frogs, turtles, sheep, goats, snakes, and bees)

-clothes/fashion/trends (fuck me up with that character design material)

-art (just a fucking book about art history and shit because I fucking want one)

I just- I have some things I wanna learn about and they happen to be very strange and specific, ok.

I missed. His funeral.

Fuck.

I missed the entire service because my nephew was being loud/giggly/fussy and I offered to walk around the church lobby and outside for a bit to see if he's calm down.

He didn't.

I missed the entire. Fucking. Service.

I was actually relieved at first but then almost immediately get super pissed about it, because this is someone that I was friends with when I was like 3-9 years old and he killed himself and I MISSED HIS GODAMN FUNERAL.

What the fuck am I supposed to do except be fucking pissy???

Long story short: I'm being a bitch because I didn't do something that I didn't even want to do.