Hard Rock From The 70s Is Soothing To My Nephew??????(And Me)

Went to Target: saw two different pretty girls with dyed red hair and ranted about how I wanted to tell them they're pretty but was too nervous, saw 4 other pretty girls and did the same thing, our cashier was a pretty girl with black hair and facial piercings and my nephew smiled at her to I remarked on him whilst referring to her as a pretty girl and ranted about how I hope she noticed as we left.

Then I went to Gamestop where I saw more pretty girls and talked about pretty girls and Pokemon.

Moral: I was super gay today.

I, uh, drew some gays. @twilyyyy have some gays.

Uhhhh, I haven't posted in a while....

But I've started watching the Moomins and Moomin is a very good boy(tm) so I started drawing him a bunch.

I just... love him?... so.... much????

*slams through David's bedroom door* WANNA GO ON A F-CKIN ADVENTURE??? WERE GONNA GET T R A U M A T I Z E D!!

Sometimes

The sun is just the sun,

Yellow is just yellow,

Books are just books,

Friends are just friends,

And none of it matters.

And other times...

The sun is warmth and life,

Yellow is joyful and bright,

Books are portals and light,

And friends are loving and kind.

Sometimes

You need to be told "It's not your fault"

Other times

You already know

Sometimes

You need to be told "Don't give up!"

Other times

You just dont

But maybe it's safer to be told

That things matter

That things can be good

That your efforts are not wasted

That all hope is not lost

That better days are coming

That you just need to keep running

That you might need a brake

That there's no blame to place

That you'll be ok

Because

We often forget the most obvious things

Humans aren't as perfect as we claim to be

We forget

And it's safer to be told again

"I love you"

"You matter"

"It'll get better"

"Its not your fault"

"Don't give up"

"You'll be ok"

There will be better days.

I'm mostly numb but I cry sometimes.

I kept debating as to whether or not I should post about this but then I remembered that my only other relatively-social outlet is my therapist so I decided to post.

My childhood friend shot himself yesterday. He died this afternoon while in the hospital.

At first I thought: "I won't be majorly affected by this, I haven't talked to him in over a year! I'm just uncomfortable because talking about suicide makes my anxiety spike due to another friends of mine attempting with me as her last goodbye!"(She's alive as far as I know, thank fucking god)

But then my mom was talking to my grandmother about what happened and mentioned that I'd been friends with him and his little sister...

And I realized... Jacob is dead. One of my childhood friends killed himself.

We're only 15... My friend is gone and we're practically still children

I keep having random bouts of re-realization because it just doesn't make any sense...

I can't feel anything. He's dead. He's gone and my emotions keep going in and out like an indesicve tide hugging the shore.

One second I'm sobbing and then, for a while, I'm completely numb.

I... I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I was so sure that this wouldn't affect me.

But she's ok. The friend I mentioned earlier is still alive.

I'm so glad she's alive, though. If I'm reacting like this to someone I haven't talked to in almost a year- I can only imagine what I'd be feeling if she'd succeeded...

I hope she knows how happy I am every time I remember that she's alive.

And how comforting that thought is now.

Because we're still just kids. Because we shouldn't be dying.

We're just kids

Atlas is very sleepy and I love him.

It’s been forever since I’ve drawn any of the Magic Monster Girls so I wanted to fix that by drawing the technical leader of the gang: Molly White the Witch! Because the universe hates me, the sketch looks amazing and the lineart looks like shit. I’m thinking about coloring it tho.

Not to sound like a crazy cat lady but....

I'd set myself on fire if it ment my cat could lively (happily!) forever.

Went to the creek near my house and these flowers have sprouted up everywhere. Feel free to use for whatever I guess, i don't really give a crap either way.