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She has a bit of an attitude problem 😊

sorry to say but i desperately need an over 100,000 word slow burn of abbot and robby falling in love with them being idiots, them struggling to deal with their trauma, robby navigating his relationship with his religion, abbot having chronic pain, tragic backstory, nonlinear healing, etc etc etc

they are so so fractured and broken and i need them to be in love and messily figuring out how to heal with each other

am i the only one who thinks that walsh and abbot act like exes on the pitt

not sure if someone's said this already, so I will: can we appreciate Neil moving stuff out of the way (like the ice cream for example) before making out with Andrew? cause so often we either have people knocking stuff over cause they simply don't pay attention to that, or whatever items were around are just forgotten about / not mentioned again. so I love that he does that first, and that Nora actually bothered to put it in there

still thinking about this and i have another reason why neil should have fucked teeth: his smart mouth. like that boy is always struggling to stay silent and hold his tongue. and yes we know he canonically loses his cool and just accepts that he’s gonna die soon like oh well, why not say the crazy thing. but you can’t tell me that attitude problem hasn’t existed and hasn’t gotten him into some trouble before. and i’m just saying, i think it’s gotten him punched in the mouth before which i think would fuck up his teeth a little

you cannot tell me that neil doesn’t have wacked teeth. like he didn’t have a consistent dentist growing up if he even had a dentist at all. because dentist scans mean leaving unchangable, undeniable truths of your identity behind and mary would not have liked that at all.

so give me neil with a chipped tooth he got from a rough landing after jumping out of a car or a window. give me neil with a gap between his front teeth. give me neil with crooked teeth to match his crooked smile

bitchy older sister allison and bratty younger brother neil is actually a top tier dynamic

andrew definitely loves to nap. i just know he gets exhausted from having to be around people at class (and generally just deal with the human species) and as a result, needs quiet time in bed to be able to make it through the rest of the day. especially with their late night practices. and when i say nap, yes i do mean i think he takes naps in the traditional sense where he’s falling asleep for a little while but i also think he just likes to get in bed midday to just rest and reset. like just to be in the dark and not have to deal with anyone while he is horizontal and tucked in. tell me you can’t see it

(also imagine neil finding this out. i feel like some days he would join andrew but knowing andrew is doing this to be able to mentally handle the rest of the day, he would know to give him space and respect that. and when he does join him, sometimes he’ll be invited to just lay next to andrew but a lot of the times he just gets in his own bed and rests too, just providing some quiet company. dorm beds are tiny, even for them, and there’s no way to comfortably avoid contact and the last thing neil wants to do is push andrew’s boundaries especially when he is doing this to reset. but andrew lets him stay in the room when he does occasionally join and i feel like neil would be pleased at that alone, at being able to partake in and witness this ritual of his even without cuddling.)

Don't FUCKING argue with me. "Neil Josten let his cigarette burn to the filter without taking a drag. He didn't want the nicotine; he wanted the acrid smoke that reminded him of his mother." Is a fucking dynamite intro!! Is it edgy as fuck? Yeah. So? Is it hella melodramatic? Probably. So? Is it bad writing? Motherfucking NO! It's damn near expert level execution of several writing principles!

Who is the story about? First two words, next question.

Catch the reader's attention as soon as possible? "Why the fuck is he wasting a cigarette?" Intrigue successfully demanded, next question.

Raise questions that will keep the reader hanging long enough to have answered? "Why the fuck does acrid smoke trigger his mommy issues?" + "Wait it's because he burned her corpse??" Many many more questions raised + blind sided reader via preconceived expectations being subverted, next question.

Character establishing moment? What other characters use for physical and emotional regulation, he uses to fucking reminisce and wallow in his feelings, next question.

Set the tone for the rest of the story? Edgy, melodramatic, and emotionally gut wrenching, NEXT. FUCKING. QUESTION!

The Muses asked Nora to roll for Hook and she rolled a nat 20 five times in a row in 30 words or less. Hook, Line, and motherfucking Sinker bitches

Some of y'all need to stop ragging on AFTG's writing and start using it as a fucking case study cus this shit has the addiction capacity of heroine and god help the goddamn saltine cracker throwing stones

runaway

ft. watercolor & colored pencil

there's this artist i follow @clementinecloudz who does younger version art of particularly andrew but they've started drawing lil neil as well and now my brain is full of kid headcanons.

- aaron and andrew live with betsy

- kevin and neil live with wymack and abby.

- kevin was obsessed when wymack started dating abby. he loved her, wanted to be her friend right off the bat. neil was suspicious asf and still isn't a big fan of her living in their house.

- aaron and andrew have entirely opposite tastes for food and it drives betsy crazy because whatever one likes the other doesn't so she's always making two different meals.

- andrew is all over the place and the thought of bringing him crowded places stresses betsy out because what if she loses him, but the first time they go to the zoo on a super busy day, he will not let go of her hand.

- aaron on the other hand, absolutely refuses to hold betsy's hand. he'll hold andrew's though.

- andrew, neil, and aaron are absolutely the kid who would shove another kid on the playground.

- kevin loves hanging out with the whole group, but will put on a show of rolling his eyes and complaining about having to hang out with little kids.

- the wymack household will go through a box of bandaids a week and solely due to neil.

- kevin and neil wrestle when they play and it stresses wymack out. they've broken a coffee table and two lamps.

- andrew, kevin, and neil are way more into exy than aaron.

- betsy meets wymack when he starts coaching the little league team for andrew/aaron's age group.

@ wymack probably

What if agent Browning has a family and one day at dinner one of his kids tells them that they want to start playing Exy or they just get really into Exy and start watching it all the time and they don’t understand why their dad is so against it and he’s not allowed to explain. But also he doesn’t want his kids to feel bad or like he doesn’t care about their interests so he just has to suck it up and go along with it. Extra bonus if one of their favorite players is Jean, Kevin, Neil, or Jeremy.

This man will forever be haunted by this sport.

accidentally binged all of the pitt in one day so i’m rewatching the whole thing

Three and four

I feel like the Trojans are to Jean what the never ending story scene is to Hopper and Joyce from stranger things like life or death situation and you just have Bobby and Diego completely unaware over here serenading each other and Jean's in the corner trying to faze into the wall like holy shit I'm gonna die

goddddddd it absolutely was a tiny rebellion and it makes me insane to think about because we know just how much he locked everything away mentally to survive riko and the nest and for him to care this much about something that he is willing to stick his neck out to get it is everything. something about history spoke to him in a way that he wasn’t willing to lose and i need to know what it was

hey so like Kevin Day history nerd that came to love history so much because he kept learning and reading about people and civilizations that where continuously torn down but rebuilt time and time again, how things were destroyed and created anew, how people, despite everything, prevail and claw their way back.

do you think he loved history so much because he looked at the ravens and saw the nest as another civilization so sure that they would never be defeated and took comfort in knowing how even the strongest civilizations, like rome, eventually fell? do you think he took to this pattern with so much fervor because he was desperately wishing for the nest to crumble, hoping that if they were destroyed he could finally escape riko? do you think he hoped for an aftermath that allowed him to rebuild his life without all the abuse, a future where he got to keep his exy but didn’t have to be viciously punished for success and failure alike?

and do you think that he watched the nest fall and the ravens spin into destruction and thought with quiet pleasure how he was right, how history was right, and all civilizations eventually meet their end? and do you think that right on its heels came fear over how the ravens would rebuild?

hey so like Kevin Day history nerd that came to love history so much because he kept learning and reading about people and civilizations that where continuously torn down but rebuilt time and time again, how things were destroyed and created anew, how people, despite everything, prevail and claw their way back.

oh butch transmasc andrew minyard… oh save me. oh he has glasses and piercings (especially an anti-eyebrow) and acne scars and he’s chubby and he lifts so; much. he lifts so heavy. butch andrew minyard who wears black compression shirts and cargo pants and steel-toed boots. leather butch andrew minyard hanky and carabiner code butch andrew minyard. butch andrew minyard with hands tats and blackout tattoos when he’s older and and and. bitten lips and nails butch andrew minyard i’m blushing

Gentle touch

Jean “damn him for looking just as good as a blond as he did a brunette” Moreau

Jeremy “forgot everything else he could have said in favor of staring. It was the first time he’d heard Jean say his name. Hearing it in Jean’s accent put a wicked flutter in his stomach.” Knox

Jean “noticed the flick of his gaze over Jean’s face and down to his shirt: the deep blue top Jeremy had seemed so taken with yesterday.” Moreau

Jeremy “It was more endearing than it should be, and Jeremy hid a smile against his long-empty mug whenever Jean got particularly rude.” Knox

Jean “The sound of his language on Jeremy’s lips was enough to give Jean pause. He counted his heartbeats as he studied Jeremy’s face, committing the textbook-perfect sounds to memory” Moreau

Jeremy “it wasn’t the words that set his heart tripping; It was the heavy satisfaction in his tone that put a needy heat in Jeremy’s stomach.” Knox (all because Jean said he was very good.)

Jean “and like Kevin had accused him, Jean had been ultimately more interested in the accompanying photographs than whatever the text might have said.” Moreau

Jeremy “he couldn’t look away again. He watched colored lights dance off the sun-reddened cheeks until Jean finally caught him at it.” Knox

Jean “Jeremy’s smile was slow and radiant, and Jean had to look away.” Moreau

Jeremy “I’m not learning French for anyone but you” Knox

Jean “It makes you more interesting. Not your capacity for unkindness, but how fiercely you fight against it.” Moreau

Jeremy “It was enough to get Jean’s undivided attention, at least until Jeremy peeled his tank top off. Jean immediately found something else to stare at, like he always did when Jeremy was in varying stages of undress. It was horrifically inappropriate fighting for Jean’s attention like this, Jeremy knew.” Knox

Jean “didn’t have to look at Jeremy to know he was smiling, he could practically feel the warmth radiating off his captain” Moreau

Jeremy “would be lucky to know his own name when Jean was standing between his legs like this.” Knox

Jean “Fuck what I deserve. What about what I want? Moreau

Jeremy “Jean’s fingers on his neck killed his train of thought” Knox

Jean “I am not sorry. Perhaps I should be. But I will choose you every time. You, and Cat, and Laila, every time. I will lose them all if I must.” Moreau

Jeremy “What little Jeremy heard went way over his head; he knew nothing about motorcycles, and Jean was more interesting by far.” Knox

Jean “Brown like the gaze that sought Jean out in every room.” Moreau

💕 Jean “Tell Kevin to stay out of it” Moreau 💕

i love fucking with men while i’m out and drunk. like the fuck you doing trying to pick me up? i will wave them off and if they persist, i will stare them down until they fuck off. and if they don’t fuck off, i would punch them. it hasn’t gotten to that point but like if you can’t read my face when im glaring af you, that’s on you.

and today, we went to a bodega afterwards and i was asking men what sport they played and making fun of all their answers, it was so funny 10/10 recommend

just got home after a night out and i’m drunk and thinking of the monsters getting to their columbia house drunk af and crashing the way i’m about to

dude i was dancing in a circle of my friends while leaning against the back of a stranger and i couldn’t think of anything except nicky and aaron on the dance floor week after week just getting drunk and turning up. partying with them would be so fun i can’t

sorry i became obsessed with saving you. it’s just that i began to see you as a proxy for myself and thought that maybe if I could fix you i could learn how to get by

slowly starting to make wymack’s apartment in the sims and let me tell you, it’s a struggle

why are there simultaneous so many options and no variety for kitchen cabinetry 😭 i have to keep repeating to myself this is 2006 this is 2006 this is 2006. bitch how the fuck did cabinets look in 2006…….

between that and trying to do decor choices like a middle aged man, i have my work cut out for me

Things that are not funny but are also hilarious

Thinking about Wymack putting up with Neil, alone, during his senior year. None of the other foxes are there to deal with his antics. Kevin isn’t there to talk about everything Exy related. Andrew isn’t there to keep him grounded and sane. Allison and Nicky aren’t pushing him out of his comfort zone with his style, appearance, etc. Matt isn’t there to be a friend. Dan can’t help him captain his team. Aaron isn’t there to annoy him. Renee isn’t there with her gentle, reassuring smile.

I know that some of the freshman from the EC become Neil’s friends, but it isn’t the same as the OG Foxes.

So, he turns to one of the few people he trusts, Dad Wymack™️. Neil joins him in his office for lunch and tells him all about Andrew’s most recent Exy game. “Did you see how many saves Andrew made last night?” 38. It was beautiful.” *heart eyes* Coach returns his attention to the paperwork he was working on when Neil walked in. He half listens as the striker explains a movie that Nicky said he needed to watch to understand current trends.

After a game night, Neil goes home with Wymack, who now lives together with Abby, and stays for dinner with the couple, yapping about everything that plagued him that day. “I talked to Andrew last night and he was telling me about this drill his pro team does at practice. He thinks it’s stupid, of course, but I think it could help us get through the other team’s defense easier.” He goes on to explain the drill between bites of pasta and sauce.

When Neil leaves, Coach looks at Abby, feeling slightly dumbfounded, “I never knew the kid could say so many words in such a short time.” Abby lets out a chuckle.

“I don’t get any paperwork finished anymore with him around so much.” He explains with fake annoyance. She gives him a soft smile, “He just misses Andrew and the rest of our Foxes. I think it’s says a lot that he trusts you with the details of his private life. We all know how hard that is for him.”

Dad Wymack sits in his thought for a quiet minute, thinking back to the locker room in Millport with the brown-haired, brown-eyed boy who was scared to live. To the airport before the new year with the red-haired, blue-eyed boy who was fighting for his family. To a cheap motel in Baltimore with a boy covered in scars who fought to stay and live. Neil has come a long way and Wymack’s chest swells with pride and love for the striker.

Two days later, on Monday, Neil shows up right on time for Wymack’s lunch hour, but the older man doesn’t mind the sound of Neil’s chattering over their shared lunch. “Allison told me my hair is getting too long, but the shampoo she sent me is making my curls look “delicious”. I don’t know what she means by that, how hair can look edible, but Andrew says not to worry about it. Speaking of Andrew, do you know how much he has been bench pressing in the gym? He’s up to—“

Wymack lets out a quiet, exasperated sigh as he leans back in his chair, accepting his fate for the next year as Neil continues talking. He may act annoyed about his new lunch time guest, but it means a lot that Neil feels safe with him, even if that means learning about pop culture and Neil’s distaste for broccoli.

you cannot tell me that neil doesn’t have wacked teeth. like he didn’t have a consistent dentist growing up if he even had a dentist at all. because dentist scans mean leaving unchangable, undeniable truths of your identity behind and mary would not have liked that at all.

so give me neil with a chipped tooth he got from a rough landing after jumping out of a car or a window. give me neil with a gap between his front teeth. give me neil with crooked teeth to match his crooked smile

anyone else get pre-concert anxiety cause oh my goddddd 😭 like im so excited but also Travel™️ and Timing™️ are making me so anxious for no. reason. that i have a knot in my chest ughhhhhh

but whatever, can’t wait to go see lucy dacus sing about her gf with one of my fellow lesbian friends so i suppose i can just ignore it

Andrew Minyard doesn’t recover

And that’s okay- here’s why

Many people have been angry about the extra content through the years, but by far the thing that I see the most people being pissed about is this, “Andrew and Neil doesn’t get married” and the “they never say I love you”

But let’s talk about this for a minute

Because just because he doesn’t recover, doesn’t mean he doesn’t get better

He does, he keeps a stable relation to his brother, cousin and Kevin after graduation, something he wouldn’t have before

He let’s himself care for Neil and the cats

He starts finding some sort of joy in Exy with the people he cares about and who cares about him

He gets well enough to sleep in the same bed as Neil and have sex with him

He gets well enough to go on mundane dates with his partner on the beach, FaceTime Nicky on schedule and cuddle up with the cats at night

He gets a lot better

Don’t relate “full recovery” to “getting better” because they’re wildly different

He shows that even if you do not recover completely from the trauma you’ve suffered, from the hurt, you can still live and be happy with the people you love

So if I see one more person saying that he’s “bad mental health rep” I might actually have to fight them