Being An Adult In Jiraiblr Is So Funny Bcs I'm Seeing These Teens Act Jus Like How I Did And It's Like

me n who (I can be both)

wake up, rot in bed all day, fall asleep, repeat. such a miserable way to live, but i can’t do much else. i’m entirely useless.

People seriously underestimate the long term effects of constant loneliness

"why are you so weird?" Idk, maybe because being completely isolated while growing up has destroyed my brain and now I'm nothing more than a human-mimicking creature that bases all of my actions on what I think is normal human behavior rather than just doing things naturally

u ever just past by a random tumblr acc and ur like “woaw! this person is mentally ill as fuck!” and u almost feel better abt urself until u see ur reflection or smth and realize how bad u are too

GUESS WHAT? IT'S TIME FOR A WEIRD METAPHOR TO EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL!!!

The only way I can explain it is this:

I'm in a cage. I built it, I put myself here (perhaps through the coaxing of others, but I was the one to step in). I know it like the back of my hand. Like my own street. I was the one who locked myself in and only I have the key to leave. It's in my hand.

It was kinda nice at first. To sit alone and bathe in my own misery, watching people pass by and never come towards the door. But now I hate it.

"So?" You ask, "why don't you just unlock the door and leave? The option is there."

I can't.

I tremble towards the lock, sometimes I'll even unlock it. But the door stays closed. I will lock it again. And again. And again. And again. And then I'll scurry back to the corner of the cage like a frightened dog, tail in-between my legs.

And nobody cares if I came out. They don't visit. They don't acknowledge or ask why. They won't even spare a glance. I'll be the same person I always was. And the cage will still lie in wait for the next time. The only person who encourages me to leave is a woman who sees many cages, she even unlocked the door from her side and held it open for me. But I remain here.

If I go, I'll be in a world that I watched develop from my corner of my cage, but never really had a part in. Especially before. Especially now. Things I won't understand and people who won't want me. And I'll miss it.

So, I'll just stay here. Until I rot. Perhaps leaving the door open, but always never stepping out.

everyone says "taking mental health days is totally fine!!!" until those "mental health days" end up lasting months

for some people a warm bubble bath and a few nights of binging Netflix can bring them back to a point where they can be a functioning member of society again

but for me, my mental illness has denied me the right to feel like a member of society to begin with

this world isn't meant for people like me

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i wanna rip my hair out can somebody pls just shoot me already