The Only Thing Thats Always On My Mind Is My Weight

me and my scars have a love hate relationship

“i will only do baby cvts so they will fade eventually”

also me when my scars actually start to fade:

if i don't get skinny then everything ive done will be for nothing. all the time ive spent obsessing over food, counting calories, exercising, purging; none of it will matter if i don't become skinny.

starving yourself all day for one meal and then it turning out to be terrible is a different level of pain

gonna have to cut my fast short bc me and my mum r going out tmrw 💔

someone make a marauders themed cal tracker for march pls you can have my soul

today was christmas day at my school and i binged so much food, i kept g@gging after but my friends were there so i couldnt excuse myself without seeming rude. as someone with emetophia and @na, i hate being sick unless i have to

i hate myself i wish i was a skeleton

currently feel like i want to thr0w up, just binged alot at lunch and i regret it but i have severe emetophobia so id rather not

“i’m so normal about them” i say as i vibrate out of my skin thinking about it

day ten

pastries and homemade food. i loved eating danishes and croissants, but now all i see is calories and homemade food doesnt have nutritional labels or serving portions, so its too risky