Over The Mountains, And Over The Waves, Over The Fountains, And Under The Graves; Over The Floods That

Lately I’ve been finding myself drowning my sorrows In alcohol.

I promised myself to not find any other substance to become numb.

I lied to myself.

I crave for it now.

What’s sober?

I can’t get enough of it.

Those around me say to voice my problems to them but in the end, I am still misunderstood.

So I will stay in this shell of mine.

And accept my journey to cease to exist.

This is my own fate.

Alice and wonderland 🌺

🖤💛

In a world of my own

4:44pm 7/18/24..

😂 it’s true and I just will always wonder why people Hesitate to come and talk to me. 

The Moon & Mars 🤍🖤

I hate temptation. Battling with temptation. As the days go by I pray for strength that God can give me, teach me, heal me, and show me the way. Because Jesus is the truth and the way. The light. The almighty.

My mom makes me feel like I’m a disgrace to this world. Like I can’t do nothing to better myself in this life. I’m trying my best. I keep getting pushed back. Her filthy words are bringing me down. I don’t even feel alive anymore. Just dead.

June 24th, 2022 8:10 AM

Timeless Place

This day I woke to some not so great news. The news anyone doesn’t want to hear when it comes to a love one. A call from a grieving parent about a mother (grandmother) who passed away. It was something I didn’t expect to hear nor think to happen. I thought there was going to be more time for you. Time.

Timing is everything isn’t it? Time ticks and it tocks. Time runs 24/7. Day and night. 7 days a week, to a month, to a year. I realize in this realm where in, time will end. There’s a timing for everything and a stopping point. We are all assigned a clock for ourselves. So use time wisely. Before the moment comes where it’ll not run anymore. But there is a place where it will forever run. There is no end. There is  eternity. There is life. From way above. I think the biggest accomplishment to ever reached is being with the creator. THE creator of the universe. Wow. Leaving this world and going to a never ending realm. Known as Heaven. And so then, you reached the final stage. Nothing after that. A timeless place.