Gloomy Days, Foggy Site🤍

When you left me.. you replaced me in an instant like I was a no one.

You left when someone close to me had passed away.

I was left not only grieving a death of a loved one, but now a death of a relationship.

You looked me in the eyes and said I’m just like everyone else.

It seemed all along I fought for our relationship but you didn’t do the same.

You were always on my mind but I wasn’t on yours.

And even now…. You still are.

I need to get you out my head.

~You look lonely~ 7/20/21 5:44 pm

June 24th, 2022 8:10 AM

Timeless Place

This day I woke to some not so great news. The news anyone doesn’t want to hear when it comes to a love one. A call from a grieving parent about a mother (grandmother) who passed away. It was something I didn’t expect to hear nor think to happen. I thought there was going to be more time for you. Time.

Timing is everything isn’t it? Time ticks and it tocks. Time runs 24/7. Day and night. 7 days a week, to a month, to a year. I realize in this realm where in, time will end. There’s a timing for everything and a stopping point. We are all assigned a clock for ourselves. So use time wisely. Before the moment comes where it’ll not run anymore. But there is a place where it will forever run. There is no end. There is  eternity. There is life. From way above. I think the biggest accomplishment to ever reached is being with the creator. THE creator of the universe. Wow. Leaving this world and going to a never ending realm. Known as Heaven. And so then, you reached the final stage. Nothing after that. A timeless place.

5:55 am

Trust in God💙

My mom makes me feel like I’m a disgrace to this world. Like I can’t do nothing to better myself in this life. I’m trying my best. I keep getting pushed back. Her filthy words are bringing me down. I don’t even feel alive anymore. Just dead.

July 4th, 2021 10:05 p.m

On this day you chose to do something that broke my trust with you.

It ended too soon.

I am broken

I’m aching

I am feeling pain

Now I just want to be numb...