Spring April 10, 2021 7:14 am
Gloomy lake days 🤍
Sh2-101, The Tulip Nebula
Always look up, Life is beautiful <3
Peaceful site, peaceful view 🤍💙
Lately I’ve been finding myself drowning my sorrows In alcohol.
I promised myself to not find any other substance to become numb.
I lied to myself.
I crave for it now.
What’s sober?
I can’t get enough of it.
Those around me say to voice my problems to them but in the end, I am still misunderstood.
So I will stay in this shell of mine.
And accept my journey to cease to exist.
This is my own fate.
Sunday Oct 11, 2020
Today I’m feeling let down and upset. I’m usually a person who suffers in silence. I don’t honestly trust anyone to talk to. Because every time I try to do the right thing and speak what’s on my mind in return I get judgment. Or no one understands. People tell me to always make sure to talk to someone when I’m feeling let down. But how can I? When in the end I just get disappointed by the responses I receive. Let down. Dear God help me! .-.