We've Been Blessed With So Many Good Raon Expressions These Last Couple Chapters.

Alternative version of og cale and og choi han's first meeting

A new understanding of cale’s character

cale henituse is a depressed bastard (we kind of been knew) am currently rereading the novel, so this time I noticed a tea symbolism, where the after the first time ron gave cale lemon tea and he drank it life's kind been giving cale lemons ever since. so of course it got me thinking more about the relationship between cale and ron and find that it would be interesting to study.

what kim rok soo observed of the relationship between og!cale and him was that ron didn’t have any particular like for cale, so could he as cale also operate under that or..?

Was just thinking about how unlike Kim Roksoo who has people in both worlds who know of the life he has led, Og Cale has no one. Lee Soo Hyuk got to reincarnate with his memories, Jour didn't. The time of Nameless 1 regressed, so nobody who survived the war with him exists any longer.

Choi Jung Soo, and Choi Han who received his memories, know what kind of life he had, albeit not all of it.

OG Cale inherited Kim Roksoo's memories. 20yo!Kim Roksoo inherited 38yo!Kim Roksoo's memories when the latter possessed the former's body. So there do exist people who know the full brunt of his trauma.

But nobody, not even OG Roksoo, knows about what Og Cale went through.

When people think of Kim Roksoo, they think of the orphaned boy who was abused and then rescued, the young man who was saved during the apocalypse by Lee Soo Hyuk, the one who followed after Lee Soo Hyuk and became team leader of Team 1, the Team 1 leader who had a 0% mortality rate, yet the man who was incredibly lonely to the point everyone thought he might die any second.

When people think of Cale Henituse, all they think of is the trash young master of a rich aristocratic family who lost his mother and has a poor relationship with his family. An alcoholic who picks fights left and right and on the verge of being pushed out of the line of succession.

Nobody knows the Cale Henituse who lost his family and fought in the war to avenge them. Nobody knows the Cale Henituse who spent 20 lonely years as the only survivor of Henituse name. Heck nobody knows the real Cale Henituse who made up a fake persona to protect his step brother. Nobody knows the Cale Henituse who kept a distance yet still loved his family.

How the heck was not a single person unable to see through the act of a child for nearly a decade? Was he such a good actor that nobody could tell the boy wasn't actually drunk? Nobody picked up on how he primarily targeted gangsters and never laid a hand on women and children? The entire world failed Cale Henituse.

crying screaming throating up-

I am so insane about this actually.

On Mary: a note

note on describing mary's voice from the perspective of an in-universe character (who wouldn't know what a 'google translate' voice is)

“[a] child with a stiff voice ... [like] her vocal cords can no longer fluctuate.”

the implications? many, and all with great potential for fics.

i wonder if cale has "useless" information about farming in his mind that pops up from time to time.

I mean, the Soos were thinking about farming while retired, right? I know that CJS said it was "all just talk", but since KRS at that time knew about this, I think that he might have read at least a little about farming. After all, he is the type of person who likes have information beforehand AND he had Record. It would have just take him a couple of minutes. Then team 1 died and all the information became useless.

But we also know that he was saving for a farm before he transmigrated. So, he kept recollecting some information even though he might not have retired (and needed it) until he was much older.

I mean, he is not a expert, but knows more than the average person about the topic.

Fire 🔥

I want him to talk to his 7 year old self so badly

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Kid!krs: why is he so mean to me

Krs: *sighs with a bittersweet expression*

Kid!krs: *tearing up* why can't he like me like mom and dad did???

Krs: it's not your fault, he was a terrible person.

Kid!krs: *sobbing atp* what if he's right about me

Krs: absolutely not, don't believe anything that scumbag says. He ruined his own life and is now poisoning yours, don't let him. You will be safe soon, I'm sure.

Kid!krs: *nods and wipes his tears and snot on cales shirt while he's embracing him*

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Choi han, who saw all of this: ...why do you call yourself trash if you know you're not supposed to believe that piece of shit?

Krs: I never believed him, me being trash was because of my own failures. It has nothing to do with him.

Choi han: please stop doing that

Krs: doing what.

Choi han: you've never failed anybody, that sort of thing has always happened in situations outside of your control! Please open your eyes for one fucking sec-

Krs: i know

Choi han: then why-

Krs: because i failed myself, that little kid spends the rest of his life mourning his dignity because I didn't have the will to confront that piece of shit. And when i did, it was too late.

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