Oh,, To Vc With A Boy,, ☹️

Gonna explode, guys. I am.. hyperfixation isn’t going Well AAAAAAAAA *explodes*

I Want to Call a Boy petnames omg,, we could vc and I’d call you mi amor and Love/Darling (my fav petnames fr)

GOING INSANE RN AABSKSAMMA

Hi, Any of you big,, strong,, and very handsome men,, wanna like,, do super romantic stuff together while not being romantically involved *winks*

When I become hot and get on T, it’s over for ya’ll fr

This just in : Basil is yearning for a boy again. And it’s becoming unbearable according to him.

Now back to your regularly schedule program. . .

Help, Boyfriend/QPP needed, will Pay. /nsrs

It’s Like i get a boyfriend, then I become too self-conscious and we Break up somehow.

A vicious cycle, ya’ll. Wish me luck ☹️

HELLO BALLSIL. something silly 😋😋🥳 (i am really funny)

You are super funny, British. Could listen to your funniness all day <3!!

CW : VENT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MLM BUT I NEED TO GET OUT

CW for disabilities and self-harm

I became sick over memorial day weekend (for those who don't know, we have the memorial day off.). Now all of my disabilities are flaring again, and i just got out of a huge flare not even a month ago.

I'm convinced this is because i don't wear a mask anymore. and before you blame me for my own issues, I don't wear one because my family doesn't anymore. I don't like to wear them in the house and due to breathing issues, i cannot wear them for a long time anyways. If i'm gonna get sick being at home or out in public, what's the point? OFC i would wear one if you asked me and would always warn you if i was sick because disabled ppl and able-bodied ppl with preferences matter.. always.

Anyways, I'm just in so much pain. I want to cry and scream and rip out my hair. I want to throw things across the room but all of that would get me recorded and prolly sent back to the psychiatric hospital.

i can't breathe without wheezing and coughing, my knees click when i walk and i keep going into pre-syncope. My fingers ache and i lost my hand brace for my wrist when it locks up. My hips hurt and even sitting criss-cross no longer helps. my back hurts and i can't crack it and i have a major headache.

I had to come home from school today, i begged my parents until they gave in. I'm scared. I'm sad. I'm depressed. I feel as if it'd be better if i just .. wasn't here. That way nobody would have to suffer. anymore. idk

I'm just so.. tired, man. Nothing is going my way, it never has. I'm so so tired, i feel so numb. I don't want to be here anymore.

I WANT A BOYFRIEND SO BAD OH MY GOD

Why the hell don’t I have a boyfriend rn? ☹️