Gonna Blow The World Up With A Nuclear Bomb If I Don’t Find A Relationship Soon— /threat (/j)

Uhm, I broke tumblr …. Tumblr hates me. (I can’t post from my phone sometimes and it bothers me)

Boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend boyfri— *explodes*

I really want to have someone in my area be a friend or a boyfriend to me. The interest isn’t the safest place ofc but I’m so fucking lonely dude, this isn’t fair.

I just want to hug and cuddle someone.

We shld be boyfriends giggling

Alright, come into my DMs then— like 🤨

I love this man so much, I can admire him from a mile away. I’ve never been happier ong

Since I’m being held hostage with a gun to my head being forced to show you guys this dog, take a look at my friends Rat. It’s a very aesthetic rat, don’t you think?

@strvberry-clvt <— said friend

Who wants to be obsessed with me? I gotta collect ya’ll Like Pokémon and give ya’ll smooches on the forehead <3!

I love being aroace :3 /pos

CW : VENT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MLM BUT I NEED TO GET OUT

CW for disabilities and self-harm

I became sick over memorial day weekend (for those who don't know, we have the memorial day off.). Now all of my disabilities are flaring again, and i just got out of a huge flare not even a month ago.

I'm convinced this is because i don't wear a mask anymore. and before you blame me for my own issues, I don't wear one because my family doesn't anymore. I don't like to wear them in the house and due to breathing issues, i cannot wear them for a long time anyways. If i'm gonna get sick being at home or out in public, what's the point? OFC i would wear one if you asked me and would always warn you if i was sick because disabled ppl and able-bodied ppl with preferences matter.. always.

Anyways, I'm just in so much pain. I want to cry and scream and rip out my hair. I want to throw things across the room but all of that would get me recorded and prolly sent back to the psychiatric hospital.

i can't breathe without wheezing and coughing, my knees click when i walk and i keep going into pre-syncope. My fingers ache and i lost my hand brace for my wrist when it locks up. My hips hurt and even sitting criss-cross no longer helps. my back hurts and i can't crack it and i have a major headache.

I had to come home from school today, i begged my parents until they gave in. I'm scared. I'm sad. I'm depressed. I feel as if it'd be better if i just .. wasn't here. That way nobody would have to suffer. anymore. idk

I'm just so.. tired, man. Nothing is going my way, it never has. I'm so so tired, i feel so numb. I don't want to be here anymore.

Yeah, I understand that. You aren’t alone in those feelings. The amount of people who have left or ghosted me bc I was too clingy and obsessive is insane.

At this point, the only way I would date again or get super close to someone, is if we were both clingy and obsessive. But also in therapy bc not unhealthily —

BPD goes brrr when it comes to developing crushes in everyone I met— insane