Today, I woke up, I woke up and when to sleep. I take a small nap. I wake up from said nap and GET JUMPSCARED BY SOME BLACK THING at the edge of my BED. 😭🙏🏾now I had to take a look TWICE to figure out what was in my room cus oh my it was about the size of ME!!? It looked like a person or monster,
Turns out it’s my dam backpack I forgot I put on my bed 🚶. I THOUGHT I WAS TRIPPIN AND I WAS 💀🤚🏾.
I’m overall a very kind person. But, sometimes I find myself withholding the URGE to act. Yes, everyone has intrusive thoughts and I am aware of the horrible things we have thought of doing. I have said this quite a few times over this new year and last year. “I show and give kindness to hide my violence.”(me) I had Just thought of this a few moments ago and wondered if that’s how I really am. But I’m not…..right? I personally do kind things and be nice to others around me. Though…even with people I do not like. My feelings ARE sincere, I, or maybe many, have violent tendencies. We just don’t act out because we know, WE KNOW this is treacherous and can cause harm to ourselves and people we know. Feeling I have gone overboard like, 2-4 times(and regretted what I had done) and the after feeling is guilt. Many other emotions such as, overthinking, sadness, mood swings, anxiety and a few other negative emotions. I, as a individual, don’t know how to feel of myself whenever I want to do my violent thoughts. I won’t put examples but if you are reading this you may guess what I am implying. This is a major thought I’ve had for quite some (long) time and don’t know why I am doing this but. I’d say it is a weird thought I wouldn’t want to talk about in person.
MY HED HURRRRTSSA ANJABSVS🧠🤛🏾🤛🏾🤛🏾🤛🏾💥💥
Smthn I drew toda🫣. It took me a lot of time and effort 😭, almost 6 hours not really including breaks but work time 👍🏾👍🏾👍🏾hope anyone like cus like Leonardo Da Vinci, I never really finish my art work.
Me when I my friend unexpectedly takes a photo and I don’t now how to pose.
(I’m not photogenic)
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