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Montag, 21.06.2021

Morgens:

Gewicht: 54.2

Gegessen: -

Kalorien: 0

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: -

Sport: spazieren vor der Schule

Vormittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: -

Kalorien:0

Hunger: bisschen

Essverhalten: -

Sport: -

Mittags:

Gewicht: 54.1

Gegessen: weckauflauf und Apfel, danach noch weclauflauf sehr unkontrolliert

Kalorien: 600

Hunger: ja, aber auch richtig Heißhunger

Essverhalten: erst nur eine kleine Portion genommen, beim Essen abgelenkt, hat nicht wirklich geschmeckt, habe mich davor geekelt

Sport: -

Nachmittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: 2 Pfirsiche, 3 dosenpfirsiche, später 6 maiswaffeln mit frischkäse

Kalorien: 550

Hunger: ja

Essverhalten: abgelenkt, in der Küche, alleine, schnell

Sport: -

Abends:

Gewicht: 55.5

Gegessen: -

Kalorien: 0

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: -

Sport: 40min joggen, 21min bauchworkout

Fazit

Gewicht&BMI: 54.1kg, 19.4

Erste Mahlzeit: 14:30

Fastenstunden: 22

Letzte Mahlzeit: 17.30

Gesamte Kalorien: 1150

Getrunken: 3l

Schritte: 25000

Sport:  1h

So my doctor just prescribed me medicaments that will make me constipated? Fml

I am so hungry rn and wanted to get some yoghurt

However my father forbid me to eat bc someone from the insurance will come this evening and he doesnt want me to eat until He has gone again

So i guess tonight we'll be starving

Man, this family is so fucked up

@wynterpyxie my mum made a similar comment! When i Was 13/14 and wearing a tight Shirt, she was actually worried that i was pregnant because of how my belly looked. And since then she kept fatshaming me even though i Was far away from being fat

people with eds, who caused your ed and why was it your mom?

*Motivation*

Hey Fatass .

We're you thinking about eating? Well read this !

Look at you ! Look at youself !

YOU ARE FAT !

You know why ? Because you eat all the damn time , that's why.

You need do get off of your lard ass and do some exercise. 100 jumping jacks ,80 crunches ,50 sit ups ,40 squats , 30 lunges 20 mountain climbers & 10 push ups. It'll feel so much better than eating.

Don't eat that ! Don't you know what food is?It's just a nice way to see fat ! You know who likes fat ass girls? NOBODY! You can't control yourself , can you ? Whatever you see , you just put it in your mouth, you don't care , that it just turns into fat.

Don't eat that, do some exercises or drink some water. I promise it's better than eating, whatever you were just thinking about it.

The carving will pass. I promise.

Don't eat you'll be happier.

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT Note to you and followers who eat low cal and take lots of walks/runs to burn off —

for the love of all things that are GOOD please PLEASE, when you walk down the sidewalk, walk as FAR away from the curb/road as possible. When you are waiting for a traffic light, wait as FAR away from the curb/road as possible. If you are under-eating and over-excercising, that’s a recipe for unexpectedly passing out. If you pass out and you’re right on the curb if a busy road— HUGE chance you will pass out and fall directly into the street, where you will promptly get hit by cars.

Even though you could still crack your head open or break other bones falling on the sidewalk- it’s far less likely you’ll be seriously injured than if you fall off the curb into a busy road.

Please walk in places where if you happen to pass out, you won’t be run over.

(Also please walk in places where if you pass out someone will see you— I know secret hidden forest trail walks are tempting for the edgy/fairycore vibes, but passing out and possibly breaking bones or suffering brain damage from hitting the ground and then not having anyone around to help you is waaaaay less cute)

this is really fantastic advice, thank you for the reminder!! i used to walk home beside a very busy road w no sidewalk and i had to stop bc i noticed id either get faint or get brain fog and start drifting towards the road, which was terrifying. anyone who follows me, pls take this advice too 🤍🤍

how to stay safe

okay so i am making this because even though i have bad days/nights (like today) recently i’ve been feeling like my goals can actually be reached! & i’m going to give my best three tips that i use myself to help you all not feel so crappy.

disclaimer: what works for me may not work for you, please don’t use this as the guide for losing weight. also i know it doesn’t have a huge effect coming from me since i literally said i use these tips but please guys recovery is always the best option. but if that isn’t happening right now i at least want to help some of you, this is being done with my very best intentions. so without further ado...

eat to lose weight: sounds dumb & i don’t really know why this works other than what we all hear (“depriving yourself for so long can lead to binges” & then you ruin any fasting/restriction yada yada) but i haven’t fasted in so long & i’ve finally moved down from being stuck on like a plateau of not losing weight. obviously fasting every once in a while can have benefits but most of the time i eat twice a day. i eat no less than like 700 maybe (i don’t know i don’t count calories often) and have been steadily dropping. plus a lot of energy goes to your brain & i want enough power for good grades. it’s hard to get past but you do not have to completely limit yourself to reach your goals. work smart not hard!

*veganism/vegetarianism: other than the obvious health benefits eating a vegan/vegetarian diet can make it a lot easier to eat a lot more food but not a lot of calories. feeling so full can be scary but knowing that you are putting good foods into your body can be rewarding and help you give yourself bigger portions and feel satisfied. i became vegetarian, not to cut out foods i simply just do not like meat, and my meals are just fine.

allowing leeway: probably the biggest “no no” in all of our minds. honestly this was hard for me too. but like i said, we know that being deprived of certain things makes us want it more & if/when we allow ourselves to have it we may over do it. so to avoid that i do a thing where in a certain situation where there’s a big fear food (lets take a birthday party with cake being served as an example) i ask myself “will i have access to more soon?” since my mother is vegan & i am vegetarian there’s not many sweets and such in the house so for me, the only time i would have cake offered again is at another celebration. so i most likely would allow myself a small piece, maybe only a few bites if i was getting to in my head, and i would just be done with it. it really has (kind of) helped to stop obsessing over all the goodies that are sold everywhere all the time.

*veganism/vegetarianism is more than a simple diet. they require some research on how to safely incorporate new and unfamiliar eating habits into your life. if considering please do it safely and correctly, if you don’t you can cause more harm than good so be careful.

please remember all of this was written with my best intention and i really do just want to help.

I hate my parents for fatshaming me and encouraging me to get disordered eating patterns. I hate them for fueling my ed. I hate them for hating my body and making me hate my body. I hate them for making me diet at the age of nine even though I was thinner than my class mates just to teach me how a "real women diets" (even when my mum fails at every diet attempt) I hate them for not caring, for pushing me even further, for wanting me to stick to my diet rules.

I hate them for destroying my body, my life, everything I have