TW Venting, Suicide

Sonntag, 20.06 2021

Morgens:

Gewicht: 54.3 (-500)

Gegessen: -

Kalorien: 0

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: -

Sport: 60min spazieren

Vormittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: Kirschen, 1 banane, 80g griech joghurt

Kalorien: 300

Hunger: bisschen

Essverhalten: abgelenkt (tumblr), mäßige Geschwindigkeit, essen fotografiert

Sport: -

Mittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: 4 Maiswaffeln mit fettarmem Frischkäse, Stück Gouda

Kalorien: 300

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: mit der Familie am Esstisch

Sport: -

Nachmittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: Stück Peperonibrot, 1 Dose Mais, 2 maiswaffeln mit Marmelade, bisschen Karamelleis, 2 Neapolitaner, Popcorn

Kalorien: 1000

Hunger: ja, und Heißhunger

Essverhalten: abgelenkt, in der Küche, unkontrolliert, viel zu schnell

Sport: -

Abends:

Gewicht: 55.9

Gegessen: -

Kalorien: 0

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: -

Sport: 13km joggen in 79min

Fazit

Gewicht&BMI: 54.3kg

Erste Mahlzeit: 10:00 Uhr

Fastenstunden: 15,0

Letzte Mahlzeit: 16:30 Uhr

Gesamte Kalorien: 1600

Getrunken: 3l

Schritte: 30000

Sport: joggen

Guess what

I binged today

The funniest thing is that i binged because im afraid that i won't do good on my finals

So i binged instead of revising

Applause for 2000 disgusting calories

why i enjoy working out as an ana

reason 1: lose weight

obviously you burn calories while working out.. this helps you achieve a lower net cal number and in the end a lower number on the scale

reason 2: something to do

when im bored i tend to eat. but if you get yourself out of the kitchen and into a gym or where ever you choose to exercise. its a distraction that will ultimately be good for your health and weight

reason 3: the showers

this helps me to get into the shower when my depression doesnt want me too. for me getting into a long cold shower after working out makes me feel hydrated and calm. cold showers burn more calories and showering also gives you something to do besides eating

reason 4: feel better about yourself

whenever i binge i make sure to exercise a lot. it makes me feel like even tho i just ate a lot im losing alot of those calories right now

I havent been tp the toilet since monday and it is fucking saturday?!

I feel like my stomach will explode, it looks like i am 7months pregnant

I tried literally everything: cardio, jumping rope, doing Yoga, drinking Coffee and diet coke and NOTHING FUCKING HELPS

Anyone have any Tips? :((

Thigh Gaps.

I’ve decided to write a little something on how to achieve a thigh gap- I’ve seen a lot of people asking if it’s even possible to get one if you’re not naturally bow legged and it totally is. You just need to be committed enough to your exercise routine, you can’t expect to starve yourself every second day and wind up looking thin and willowy.

My best advice is do lots of cardiovascular work- too much resistance or weights training will build big muscles that you don’t want. I am a professional dancer and dance is my only exercise, and my thigh gap is getting better every day! 

One of the best exercises for a thigh gap is a dance move you’ve probably heard of- The Twist. It’s simple and fun, if you do it properly there’s enough movement to affect your thighs and hips. Make sure you stand with your feet shoulder width apart, on a smooth surface with socks or soft soled shoes on- if you’re on carpet, barefoot or in shoes that grip, you’ll wind up using your knees too much and hurting them. 

Twist your torso the opposite way to the way your knees are going- try to isolate your leg movements as opposed to your body. Then, shift your weight from left foot to right foot, right foot to left foot, while twisting. You can twist with one leg forward, twisting forward over it and leaning back. There are so many variations on it and you can honestly do it anywhere. I often twist while showering or doing mundane little errands, people thinking I’m just goofing around but in actual fact I’m getting that little closer every second to achieving the perfect thigh gap. 

Drink lots of water, especially with a little lemon in it, or even with a little chilli powder, to kick start your metabolism and keep you hydrated. It works like a charm!

Also, get used to standing on the outside edges of your feet. If you’re flat footed it will make your thighs sit closer together. Holding most of the weight on the outside of your feet while still keeping your feet flat will straighten out your legs and improve your posture.

I’ll post more little tips if people are interested- this blog is new but I’ve been doing this for a lot longer. 

PLEASE PLEASE I NEED YOUR HELP

at school, i abaolutely loved math and physics. I studied a lot at school and got straight As in every subject. But i am at university now and my Grades are so bad. I study math and physics and i really thought that i would be goot at university. I did my work throughout the Semester, and i prepared myself for the exams. I got the results today and i almost failed my exams. Now i am feeling like the biggest dumb ass on earth

So is anyone out here who could give me some tips on how to successfully study for scientific subjects at university?

Any help is appreciated

I HATE my father so much

He is so commanding and controlling. He only does whatever he pleases to do and not a single thing more. He is truly convinced that his opinion is the only acceptable one and simply starts shouting whenever a minor thing doesnt go the way he wants it to

I hate him so so much

Please keep in mind that this is my Personal experience

I am so hungry rn and wanted to get some yoghurt

However my father forbid me to eat bc someone from the insurance will come this evening and he doesnt want me to eat until He has gone again

So i guess tonight we'll be starving

Man, this family is so fucked up

Did i run a half marathon on friday and burn over 1000cals? Yes.

Did my father fat-shame me and joke about my eating habits on saturday? Yes.

Was my father worried on sunday about me not eating enough? Yes

Bruh