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Kinshi Squad doodles because I’m bored

pov Robin just called you cringe

fire emblem awakening is ten whole years old today and I haven’t really processed that yet!!

I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

I dig these three dumbass men

Op I'm so sorry I rambled in your tags and reached the tag limit uhh yeah don't read all that--

i think my pea sized brain finally understood ugetsu and aki’s relationship. akihiko before meeting ugetsu was a person who was confident in his music ( classical ) but when he met ugetsu , the immense talent that he had , made him feel inferior and he began to doubt his own abilities but at the same time he fell for ugetsu , he thought if he could carry the burden ugetsu had been shouldered upon he could be with him , have him , for himself and that way not only would he be connected to music but also be with ugetsu . around this point of time they became emotionally attached to each other to the point where ugetsu became someone irreplaceable to aki ( remember akihiko’s parents divorced and he had no place to go and ugetsu’s offer to stay with him was like a manna thrown upon aki in a desert ; ugetsu became his ultimate refugee , his home ) .

the relationship also could have been simple but no . it was now ugetsu’s turn to realise that he was being way too dependent on aki , which he started to repel , because for him music was everything , as a deeply sensitive and insecure person who was unable to express himself music was his only way to let out his loneliness but he realised how much he and akihiko being together was suffocating , cause he felt he was pulling aki down and because he loved akihiko sm he wanted him to free of this bond , ( and something i realized after sm over analysis ugetsu clearly draws line between him and other people not because he’s a genius and had superiority complex but because some people just don’t like ppl crossing that inner boundary of theirs , invading them , the part they never want anyone to know or see and akihiko was slowly starting to invade him - his deepest parts ) where the two of them can be free , and hence came those bitter words “ let’s break up ” .

when you love someone sm that your entire world revolves around them and one day they suddenly tell you to break off it’s like your world suddenly stops spinning . it’s like banging on the door of an empty room ; like ripping off an old bandage that you never cared to open and digging on the scar . the relationship only gets more complicated from here on when they start fooling around with other people , ugetsu clearly wanting to cut off from akihiko starts having flings asking aki on purpose to not come because he has someone new and it’s a sign to go already ! which agitates akihiko a lot , someone whom you thought had accepted you and had wanted you for who you were doesn’t want you anymore , aki feels helplessly rejected and used by ugetsu , he starts to think that he was the only one who was emotionally invested in this relationship and that is why he refers to his first love as unrequited and one sided. having no place to stay and considering how aki didn’t stay in touch with his parents he starts doing odd jobs , doing unimaginable things ( flings with money ? ) and most of all the only way he thought he could ever even make ugetsu be disappointed was by switching the genre of his music , he starts playing drums making it seem like ’ if you’re moving on so will i ’ .

bUT the relationship gets more and more complicated oof it’s like playing snakes and ladder , you keep rolling the dice and you’re close to the finish and poof you get bitten and you’re back to square one , it becomes a loop from here on not letting go of each other and haruki comes into play somewhere here ( and because this is solely only about akigetsu , not gonna elaborate all that much on akiharu) . when aki realizes how much he loves being with haruki because not only does he begins to enjoy music he starts to think better of himself and wants better of himself too and after the horrendous mistake he inflicted upon haruki he wants to be a person who deserves him , worthy of his love and when he confronts to ugetsu about this, ugetsu gets irritated by how how akihiko wants to abandon their relationship but nevertheless at last mafuyu’s music serves as an ointment on a wound , it provides warmth to the frozen and cold telling it’s okay , okay to let go , okay to move on being hurt or having found someone . IT’S OKAY™ .

Lon'qu’s morning routine. If there’s one thing I absolutely CAN’T STAND in video games it’s costumes that make no sense. So ofc this means I have to go out of my way to carefully draw out every single article of clothing on my favorite characters in painstaking detail to match my standards……

Headcanon: Lon'qu gets dressed for his first day in Ylisse with the Shepherds and this is what happen when he walk out the door

I’m sorry Lon'tato. You didn’t ask for this. Nobody did

shoutout to the people working for hours on content that only gets ten notes. i’m kissing you tenderly on the forehead as we speak

As she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom,

Waiting for answers

Wasting time-

Here it is again, a heart of excitement In the form of a girl who hates her life

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based on bedroom community by glass beach

Don’t lose your head, huh? [Click for better Image Quality?]

Huevember Day 20

shoutout to the people working for hours on content that only gets ten notes. i’m kissing you tenderly on the forehead as we speak

pov: Hanging out with the Real Bestie but tumblr Smited you from the tags the first time [ Click for better Image Quality?]

T. THE. THIS??? YES PLEASE??? OP YOURE GIVING ME SO MUCH SEROTONIN GLASS BEACH FANS RISE UP

planetarium

Butler Family Competition Moments

[Late Huevember 16]

TODAY

OH SHIT GO GO GO *DANCES FURIOUSLY*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIRD MAN [Click for better Image Quality(?)]

Huevember Day 13

A year sure flies by...

My favorite quotes from the stream (as I was able to jot them down as they were being said)

Don’t cry because it’s over. Cry because it happened.

What is a graveyard if not humanity’s hall of fame?

It’s like I’m fondling the balls of life.

Choose to spend time on what fulfills you, on what makes you happy… Every second is a chance to turn your life around.

When I die, I want to be an empty shell, having given every part of myself to creating.

The worst part of this was when the boiling hot piss shot out onto my foot.

No, that was pain; this is suffering. (technically from the pee sauna vid but they watched it during the stream it counts)

At the end of the day, you know: pizza’s pizza, piss is piss.

We have experienced something that no human ever has, and that’s incredible.

We’re not just two grown men who drank each other’s piss. We’re two grown men who bathed in each other’s piss.

How you respond to events that are out of your control defines you as a person.

Unus annus dot com: hey hey, wow wow.

I feel like a lot of people will feel lost tomorrow. And that’s okay.

It had to be a piece of us that we put out there… and then let go.

A year is many things to many people. But it is not forever.

“Memento Mori” has two meanings: remember death or remember that you will die, but also remember to live.

Edit: I have been told in the notes that I missed some absolute gems, so here’s a more complete list!

I’d cry myself to sleep if I wasn’t gonna be dead in five and a half hours.

Every second is just another chance to get dick.

Mark: I’ve never been hit by a car before, how do I know I won’t enjoy it? Amy: We could take this out to the parking lot if you want to test it.

I want to be Mr. Hybrid Wellness, now.

We’ve been edging Father Time for a whole year.

Shot out the load that contained Tony Stark. What a profound man.

I wanna make it through this year and it kills me.

Bald Ethan was a special type of chaotic.

Listen. I have nothing to say to you.

We can’t see the stars, but we know they are there.

It’s like you’re lying in your death bed surrounded by your family.

Every fart is a chance to take with love.

We made a cry box.

Ethan: Does that stem from something? Mark: Survival instinct.

Tired, sad, and a little tipsy.

Evan, your fursona has to be a bear. I’m sorry, but rules are rules.

You ever heard of Halloween?

The Unus Annus way: not quite what we wanted.

Just because we’re gone doesn’t mean you have to forget about it.

A second is nothing. But a second can change someone’s life.

It’s time.

Day 363/365: “The Unus Annus Annual Sleepover”

The last episode. My final livestream is tomorrow, be ready.⏳⌛️

Tomorrow: goodbye

Eyes [Click for better Image Quality]

Huevember Day 10

nothing fills my heart with more violence than the sight of a naked wrapping paper roll

this is how Cain killed Abel

hey everyone 👋 take my uquiz i finished and then forgot about for months. it's 28 questions with 15 results and there's no lyrics or pop culture references so it should be friendly to non-americans and people like me who are just out of touch

Queen [Click for better Image Quality]

Huevember is painful but I love it

Eyes all over him!

Please tell me this hasn’t been done yet [ Click for better Image Quality (and just so you can see the first two cuz I didn’t like the “normal” formatting lmao)]

seasons.

queen megamind queen megamind queen megam-

Snowgrave..? [wip]

GIVEN | Ugetsu Murata Character Deep Dive

Ugetsu Murata is one of my absolute favourite characters out of any anime and manga because as a composer and musician, I can relate to his struggles on a spiritual level. I thought it might be kind of fun to really see how much we can try and understand this beautiful and flawed individual who is still very very deserving of love and a happy ending.

Ugetsu's Personality

Nonchalant and aloof exterior but extremely sensitive interior

Pivots between being a bit needy and dismissive, hot and cold

When it comes to the topic of music, he is extremely honest, sometimes a bit brutally honest.

Finds it hard to verbalise his true needs and wants - constantly self-sabotages.

Basically a walking human contradiction

Ugetsu and music is a matter of SURVIVAL

Let's first talk about Ugetsu's relationship with music. Ugetsu is an exceptional violinist deemed by others as having bestowed with genius talent. Everyone, including Akihiko and later of course Mafuyu when they go and attend one of Ugetsu's concerts are absolutely mesmerised by the way he plays and connects with the music. Everyone is so incredibly moved by the way he plays because

Ugetsu can be his authentic himself when he plays the violin.

For those few minutes on stage, Ugetsu doesn't need to hold back and can show people his emotions, his sensitivity, his overwhelming vulnerability and feelings for the world, he can let it all out because holding it in, would have probably killed him.

When Ugetsu says that he wanted to be with Akihiko but he's in love with music. What he really means is that music is his source of life, without it, he simply can't live. As an artist, I can actually really relate to that. Sometimes the overwhelming feelings of emotions need to be turned into art or music, there needs to be an outlet, it's unhealthy to actually keep it all in. We must understand that for Ugetsu, playing music is a matter of SURVIVAL otherwise his emotions all become a bit too much.

Ugetsu as we have established is an incredibly sensitive person. He knew that the relationship with Akihiko was suffocating the both of them because he realised how much his playing held back Akihiko as a person. Akihiko consciously or subconsciouly began to dedicate himself entirely to Ugetsu's happiness and lost his own drive and passion as a person. Ugetsu picks up on this so he began to also hold back (consciously or subconsciously) on how freely he could express himself with his music, which I believe became terrible for his own mental health. Music for Ugetsu is a form of therapy.

While he continued to provoke Akihiko to take music seriously again, he could tell when Akihiko was not confident in his playing knew he had to put an end to it. He knew it was bad for the both of them.

Ugetsu and the loneliness of the Genius

While music is just naturally a matter of emotional outlet and survival for Ugetsu, other people put him on a pedestal. Overwhelmed by the intensity of his emotions and playing, the audience cannot see him simply as a human being but as a genius. This is why, Ugetsu although admired by all and envied by all, we don't really see him get any sort of emotional satisfaction from winning a competition or playing well at a concert. It's just something he has to do and the consequence is that others idolise him and isolate him from their normal day to day interactions.

Although this is something that was sort of pushed on him, he himself fuels this victim mindset of 'loneliness' as well. @morievna explains it so well in this post about Ugetsu being stuck in the Ni-Ti loop, I'll leave it here.

I find it absolutely brilliant where through watching Mafuyu perform, Ugetsu also identified him as a genius. He not only means that Mafuyu has talent, but music perhaps is a matter of survival for him as well. Mafuyu communicates better through music than any other medium. I think there is so much weight in this line because Ugetsu I think predicts that Mafuyu is dealing with some level of loneliness as well and therefore is able to give such an outstanding performance.

Ugetsu is honest when it comes to music

Ugetsu also is not only incredibly perceptive but incredibly blunt when it comes to music as well. We see that he doesn't hold back on harsh feedback when Mafuyu comes to visit and play for him. He tells it as it is because music is easy for him to understand. Music doesn't lie.

Ugetsu's Love Languages

Ugetsu does sort of follow a bit of the genius stereotype a bit in the sense that outside of his music, he acts like a bit like a foetus. Of course, post-breakup in his New York apartment, we definitely see an improvement on his independence (makes me very happy).

1. His top love language is acts of service. Multiple times throughout, we see Ugetsu asking Akihiko for coffee, to be fed breakfast or dinner as a means of getting attention, love and care. In Chapter 21.5, it is revealed that his father was a diplomat and grandfather a politician and he's kind of just thrown into this concrete basement as a young adult. I think he can't help but continuously return to the Tender-Loving-Care that Akihiko provides that he so desperately lacked as a child due to his absent parents.

2. Second love language would be physical touch. I think more so than sex, he just wants to be held sometimes. I literally don't think Ugetsu enjoys sex all that much but more so the feeling of being truly desired by someone. That's why I believe he always has such a hard time saying no to Akihiko's advances even after they broke up. Everytime Ugetsu sleeps with someone else, it's actually a very conscious attempt to break things off with Akihiko.

Quality time just doesn't seem possible with being a renowned violinist and honestly, as a musician, I really relate to that. Dating is hard for artists because schedules and performances are all over the place.

Words of affirmation I don't think is even a thing between Akihiko and Ugetsu. Ugetsu communicates through provoking Akihiko to try and get him to be more confident and serious in his music. But anything outside of music, Ugetsu cannot be honest. Akihiko just doesn't really communicate at all.

Least favourite love language is probably receiving gifts, as shown with Ugetsu slapping away the mug that Akihiko got for him. It seemed like an overly dramatic moment at the time when I first watched the Given Movie but I think in all honesty, I think it was a good representation to show how Ugetsu began to take Akihiko and his TLC for granted after a while and the moment the mug broke, it was a metaphor for him realising how much he was hurting Akihiko and taking advantage of the Akihiko's overwhelming love for him.

Ugetsu has Anxious Avoidant Attachment Style

According to psychologists Nicolas Favez and Herve Tissot, the researchers behind the 2019 study from Journal of Sex & Marital Therapy, these are some of the traits of the Anxious Avoidant Partner:

Severe difficulty regulating their emotions in relationships - 100% he is always pivoting between hot and cold

Responding poorly or inappropriately to negative emotions - because Ugetsu is so sensitive, he actually internalises all of Akihiko's insecurity and pain while at the same time hurts Akihiko to break things off, which in turn hurts himself even more, it's a vicious cycle

Negative view of themselves - actually admits that he is the "lowest son of a bitch towards Akihiko"

Perceiving other people and their support negatively - doesn't trust Akihiko's sacrifice of wanting to be with him

Less commitment and satisfaction in romantic relationships - well, this point explains itself.

Higher likelihood of showing violence in their relationships - well, point explains itself.

Having a very high number of sexual partners - point explains itself

More sexual compliance (when asked for sex, you're likely to say yes) - everytime Akihiko makes any advances, Ugetsu accepts.

Elevated anxiety - everytime Akihiko leaves, Ugetsu is just emotionally completely going crazy hoping he would come back. The basement is completely in disarray.

Fear of intimacy or fear of relationships - He loves Akihiko to death. On one hand he's doing it for Aki's mental wellbeing. On another, he's self-sabotaging.

People like that often say:

I want to get emotionally close to my partner, but I worry about them hurting my feelings.

I want to feel close to my partner, but I also don’t trust them to want to be close to me.

I can’t live without my partner, even though being with them isn’t working.

I don't know about you but that sounds very much like Ugetsu. Ugetsu self-sabotages and it's because as a child he's been neglected for so long, he wants to be loved but he also craves to be alone. He is always so anxious whenever he pushes Akihiko away and hopes that he will come back.

So how can Ugetsu heal?

I think Ugetsu is well and truly on the path of healing. A period of independence will actually do him a lot of good in New York. Ugetsu needs to learn how to stand on his own two feet as an adult and practise proper hygiene and self-care without being completely reliant on music as a way of outlet and therapy.

Ugetsu if he is to find the right kind of partner, they need to have a secure attachment style and have lots of patience with him. Someone who initiates conversation and actually asks and says,

"Hey, what's wrong? Why are you doing this? What is the actual meaning behind your actions?"

Someone who holds him accountable whenever he tries to self-sabotage. Ugetsu needs to then step forward and start practising and noticing his new partner's love languages and meet in the middle, rather than have one person in the role of the caretaker and one in the role of the child.

He probably shouldn't date anyone in the music industry is my honest opinion, or date someone that's in a completely different field of music than he is.

HAHAHA the person that actually comes to mind is Iwaizumi from Haikyuu because I can't help but see some similarities between Oikawa and Ugetsu. Iwaizumi definitely seems like that type to be able to call people out on their bullshit while also being able to be a bit goofy and fun as well. Yeah I ship it.

Also, Ugetsu needs to spend more time working on building genuine, strong platonic friendships. I think he is actually doing well in that department, replying to Mafuyu's congratulatory message straight away. Ugetsu needs to take risks and put himself out there a bit more and become less codependent and enmeshed with other people's feelings. Harder done than said but I believe in him :)