If you feel like you’re ugly and lame just lie to yourself. Like say “Ohhhh my goddd I feel so awesome and sexy haha I am the most goated transvestite in this room rn” three times in front of the mirror and then you’ll feel better
june 20th, 2024
hate to break it to you but if it keeps you up at night it still hurts no matter how hard you try to swallow it
I was talking to my sister about how awful I’ve been feeling lately and I started to get so upset. I know when I get upset it upsets her so I couldn’t bare to look up at her, but I was kind of joking about how I feel like if I was a dog they’d put me down because of my quality of life, and she didn’t laugh or anything. She just sat staring out the window, and then asked how that makes me feel.
Aughhhh I wish everything was gentler
this dude. i feel the emptiness of my friend’s absence after every hangout and it cripples me. or something
googling shit like "why do i feel bad after hanging out with my friends" and all of the answers are either "you need better friends" (i don't; my friends are wonderful) or "your social battery is drained, you need to rest and regain your energy levels" (i don't; i've got tons of energy, it's just manifesting as over-the-top neurotic mania). why is this even happening. it's like some stupid toll i have to pay as a punishment for enjoying myself too much
That one was too edgy for the blr my bad
i vividly remember the first time i listened to it. it was in sixth, or seventh grade and i was browsing youtube looking for music to fall asleep to, and i found a 3 hour loop of gymnopédie no. 1 with rain in the background and i fell asleep to it for months. when i first listened to it, it was like i was removed from my body, and put into the music. i felt so fluid, nothing existed outside of my headphones and the piano. it brought me peace in the most violent years of my life,and i cannot tell you how deeply i needed the sanctuary this song provided me. gymnopédie no. 1 will forever hold such a sacred place in my heart
anyway no one fucks with gymnopédie no. 1 like i do
Top surgery recovery has involved an onslaught of emotions that I'm still figuring out how to express, but this grief was not something I anticipated would be part of it.
Adam: *speaks* Lawrence: 🙄🤦♂️
SAW (2004) dir. James Wan