"SURVIVING"

I bite, are you sure you still want me?

And in the end I seriously don't think I could actually kill myself. When it all boils down, I truly don't think I'd be able to. But thinking of it and obsessing over and all the what ifs and possibilities somehow makes me feel a little better. It's terrifying yet soothing. And I know that doesn't make sense. I can't make sense of it.

"Scratch that. I want to be loved. I want her to love me."

INTRODUCTION, I Would Leave Me If I Could, Halsey

digital painting I did of my boyfriend and I a while back. he is my world

this might not be relatable at all but like. is there any other trans masc who isnt *nearly* as dysphoric without clothes as they are with?

cus like. if i look at myself shirtless its kinda like. yeah obviously i wish i had a flat chest but its like oh well i can deal with this for now.

but when im wearing clothes and you can see my chest with them on???? even if im wearing a binder?? i feel like ripping my hair off and do diy top surgery with the nearest sharp object i can find

sleepy grinding that turns into desperate fucking?

sometimes i just sit and think. wow i should end my life

stupid dog boys