Why Am I Always Going Out Of My Way To Be Loved? Can’t I Just Be Loved As Is?

horribly nasty thoughts. (cuddling, and holding hands, and giggling, and tracing your face gently with my fingers, and you running yours through my hair, and wrapping my arms around your waist, and getting lost in your eyes and-)

digital painting I did of my boyfriend and I a while back. he is my world

"it gets better" - but i've been this way since i was a child.

getting misgendered by adults but universally correctly gendered by children makes me feel like some sort of fairy creature thats true form is only perceptible to children

It seems as if no one will ever put in extra effort for me

As a kinky autistic person, I love getting to unmask during sex oh my god.

Like getting to just smile and not care what my face is doing while going down on someone or something, getting to make whatever noises I want even if they aren’t overly attractive just because I’m enjoying myself and I want to show it. I love just asking flat out what they want me to do and seeing how they get flustered and stutter out an answer. I love the feeling of satisfaction in a task when I get them to finish. I love saying exactly how I’m feeling and how I feel about them and how much I’m enjoying myself no matter what I sound like while saying it.

Like this is the most vulnerable thing I could think to do with you, of course I’m gonna be my true self

Sitting around waiting to be messaged and flirted with and paid attention to