Crazzyyyramblings - Crazy

having bpd and also being a people pleaser is so weird because i will hate someone when they’re not with me and swear i’ll ignore them, and then 15 minutes later i’ll pick up their call and spend the next five hours with them

Memories Made In Moonlight

Watercolor on Black Cotton Paper

2024, 9"x 12"

Blue Forget Me Nots

Private Collection

All I’ve wanted from a young age was to be necessary.

i am going feral (i wanna be cuddled and listen to music together)

Me: it's just mild depression, it's not that serious. 🙄 . . .Persistent Depressive Disorder you say? 🤨

man im starting to think im depressed or something xD

YOU CAN GET FUCKING BETTER!!!! YOU GOT THIS SHIT!!!!!! KEEP GOING BITCH !!!!!!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!!

I think there's a misconception surrounding depression that it's the same as sadness, however I don't think that's it. I'm here laying awake at 5 am after waking up for no reason at 3:30, and I want to die even though I don't feel particularly sad in fact, I'm pretty sure I don't feel anything at all. I feel sad often, right now I don't. But I still think that I don't want to continue living anymore.

having bpd and also being a people pleaser is so weird because i will hate someone when they’re not with me and swear i’ll ignore them, and then 15 minutes later i’ll pick up their call and spend the next five hours with them