Crazzyyyramblings - Crazy

getting fucking dunked on by my little sister for existing in a perpetual state of worry

Deep rooted problems

I think there's a misconception surrounding depression that it's the same as sadness, however I don't think that's it. I'm here laying awake at 5 am after waking up for no reason at 3:30, and I want to die even though I don't feel particularly sad in fact, I'm pretty sure I don't feel anything at all. I feel sad often, right now I don't. But I still think that I don't want to continue living anymore.

trying not to get attached

It seems as if no one will ever put in extra effort for me

I’m sorry I’m not good enough

I’m sorry I’m a failure

I’m sorry I will never be anyone

I’m sorry I’m not worth it

I wish I was never born

Why am I always going out of my way to be loved? Can’t I just be loved as is?

they will replace me so easily and never remember who i even was