The worst thing about not being able to sleep is that sometimes, you get trapped in your own mind. Your brain conjures up plenty of thoughys, and images, and scenarios, and all you can do is just lay there and absorb. You can't really fight your own mind when you're that exhausted, and it sucks.
Sometimes I get neutral or happy things, like inspiration for shit or ideas for fics, the drive to clean my room.
Sometimes, I get the shit end of the stick. Sometimes I recall a bad memory, or I put myself down, or a little voice is telling me to give up on loop.
Right now, I just want to curl up in a ball and stop existing. My brain hurts and I haven't slept properly in weeks. I might have to talk to my doctor again about pills.
I hope you guys are having a good night though. Sweetest of dreams and happiest of thoughts for all of you~~~
traumatized fictional man with dubious morals I'd like to fuck
I've been thinking a lot about AI generated porn. This is porn with people who don't do sexual content, didn't consent to have their face/body molded into porn, and obviously are not being rightfully compensated for this content and the use of their likeness.
Not only is this abusive, but I can't help but think that this goes wayyyy beyond the scope of harassment, impersonation, or any laws that this would justly fit into. It's sexual harassment but 10 times more abusive and can be done to anyone from celebrities and politicians to school teachers, doctors, your friends, and your neighbors. If someone wishes to violate you through AI, they can with little to no repercussions. Imagine you couldn't get a job or accepted to a college because a fuck head made an AI pornographic video of you and its almost indistinguishable from you personally.
The mental toll that it would take to get over that is immeasurable. Imagine a cnc scene that's AI generated with a victim of rape. And they see that. What's the crime there? Obviously, that's a crime, and the people who generate this content are scum of the Earth and deserve to be prosecuted to full extent.
If you pay for this content then what the actual fuck are you doing with your life? There are REAL CREATORS who CONSENT to making sexual content. Many of them do custom videos ! Like what the actual fuck?!?! If your just doing it because of the lack of consent your no better than a rapist. And that isn't a hot take.
YOU hate JK Rowling!
genuine question: is there any actual evidence that "joking about killing yourself worsens your mental health" or is it one of those perpetually uncited pop-psych things that people say because they are personally uncomfortable with hearing it
That’s a cute foot fetish you got there, would you mind keeping it 25796323689432 feet away from me?
Firefighter demonstrates how to put out a kitchen fire
If you are under 18 years of age, please tread carefully. Do not message me personally, I am quite uncomfortable with speaking to someone so young, but feel free to send asks. I will tag everything smut and violence related with the tag nsfw. If I find out that you are under 18, I will have to block you. I ask you to respect my wishes, and in turn I will respect yours.
I know that asking you not to interact whatsoever is pointless, we’ve all been there, but just don’t go past my boundaries.
If you are shy and want to send me a message, please feel free to! If you don’t want to send me an anonymous ask, message me as well! I am honestly open to it if you’re 18 or over, but I am not that great at messaging so expect a reply within the next 3 days. Requests will have their own separate post, and if I get curious enough I’ll create a Masterlist here. I will link my AO3 account here as well when I have the time. Don’t be afraid to give me criticism on my works btw, I strive to improve as much as I can!
That being said though, I won’t take any bashing seriously. If you need to rant, let me know and I’ll listen, but mindlessly bashing and blasting anyt writing of mine or someone else’s will be ignored and the ask/interaction deleted. If you didn’t like it, you can just not read it or ignore it. You can also just leave a sad or angry face if you don’t like my latest story/stories, maybe both, maybe even just a bunch of stabbing emojis. Go at it, have your fill, but don’t be mean.
My last rule is to please try and be patient. I am not good with managing literally anything time-wise or other, so if I don’t reply right away, just wait a few days before sending the same message. Threats aren’t appreciated no matter who they come from, bad-mouthing or swearing at me won’t make me answer faster, and asking me to hurry up with an update or a story idea is just, really stupid. I don’t get paid for this, I do it for fun, please remember that before sending me your impatient message.
Also for those of you who understand how hard it is to balance everything, you’re the real MVP’s. I love you guys, can’t wait to write for you all! Stay tuned for all my stuff!
AO3:
18+ Interactions ONLY Tat, 27, previous blog was lost so I'm starting anew! Welcome to my dungeon. I like many fandoms, I'm willing to talk to anyone, and my AO3 Account is PunkTheKat I posted my first fic, it's a Reggsy fic! Please check it out! Rules Fandoms
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