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The worst thing about not being able to sleep is that sometimes, you get trapped in your own mind. Your brain conjures up plenty of thoughys, and images, and scenarios, and all you can do is just lay there and absorb. You can't really fight your own mind when you're that exhausted, and it sucks.
Sometimes I get neutral or happy things, like inspiration for shit or ideas for fics, the drive to clean my room.
Sometimes, I get the shit end of the stick. Sometimes I recall a bad memory, or I put myself down, or a little voice is telling me to give up on loop.
Right now, I just want to curl up in a ball and stop existing. My brain hurts and I haven't slept properly in weeks. I might have to talk to my doctor again about pills.
I hope you guys are having a good night though. Sweetest of dreams and happiest of thoughts for all of you~~~