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people need to stop writing sebastian smythe x female reader.  

sebastian is GAY.  not bi.  yes, there’s chemistry with santana during the smooth criminal scene, but that doesn’t mean he’s attracted to her.  he is only seen being attracted to men and has only talked about being attracted to men.

yes, i am a girl and i do think sebastian is cute.  yes, i have written fan fiction about characters before.  but i’m not going to write fan fiction about a gay character where the reader is meant to be female.   this is not because i am biphobic.  i myself am bi.  it’s just by making him attracted to women you’re erasing his sexuality, which is a very prominent part in his storyline.  i see this happening with robin from stranger things (rp accounts on instagram making her sexuality bi so she can appeal to male characters) and it’s gross.

the argument “well, he’s still attracted to men if he’s bi” makes no sense.  yes, he’d still be attracted to men if he were bi, but making him bi makes him attracted to women.  and that’s what’s wrong there.  SEBASTIAN IS NOT ATTRACTED TO WOMEN.  he is openly gay.  as said.

it also says he is gay on the fan wiki, which isn’t always a completely reliable source, but it is also said in multiple news articles.

seriously, people need to get it through their head that this is stupid.  i know a singular tumblr post isn’t going to stop people from posting these fan fics, but i honestly just needed to rant.  that’s it.

Why I Headcanon Waylon Park as a Trans Guy?

it came to me in a dream.

ok but jokes aside (well not entirely it DID actually originate because of a dream i had getting interrupted by a nonexistent video essay on the topic... dreams are weird man), i do want to try talking about my reasoning for this (although it's totally legit to hc a character as trans purely because you want to!! thats totally based also lol), because maybe it'd be interesting to hear the lens through which i saw this game? idk lol but i'm doing it anyway... below the cut in case it gets long

Ok immediate prefaces, A: i doubt this was actually the intended at all and i'm not trying to say it's canon, just saying why i read it that way :3 and B: this will probably be a rambling mess and I apologize, I'll try to make it somewhat make sense.

I guess I'll start with: a whole major thing of Outlast, is fighting to tear down this large corporation, that is like. the embodiment of shitty systems that exploit people (this post by bry mentions that general topic, although more focused on miles' angle). It's worth noting because, to me at least, fighting these sorts of systems really aligns with a lot of queer folks (and basically any group that gets fucked over by the system, which is most of them loll). There's like, this whole thing of Waylon seemingly fitting that image of the ideal typical man, with the wife and kids and a job, but he has to risk all of that to do what he feels is the right thing.

(Oh yeah, I guess quick tangent on that note. Yes I know in canon we literally see his dick lmao and also we know he has kids, which you might think would deter my hc here. but A: i already said ik it's probably not canon, i can still read into it regardless. B: intersex ppl exist. C: phalloplasty and other similar procedures exist. D: ppl can have kids in non-traditional way. so im prob not gonna cover that element of it more)

My brain hasn't been able to help but interpret his whole journey in a queer way, because i played it as a teenager still in the throes of understanding my identity and place in the world, so in the end this might not even make sense to anyone else. But, I'm trying to explain, so I'll continue to regardless.

I kind of saw it as Waylon hiding in the protection of an "ideal" life. On the surface he looks like he's in that American ideal family, but it's a subversion. He's only one of them because they think he is. Because he doesn't step out of line. Unlike Miles, who's more outspoken about issues, who seemingly has no one around him. He's treated as part of this "ideal" world, while working in the background to try and stop the exploitation and immoral acts going on.

When he's caught, when he's seen as something more complicated than first imagined, he's cast out. Lumped in with the same people being exploited by Murkoff already. He isn't "human" to them anymore. He's something else. Something they don't like.

Although the violence brought upon him is by the variants, it is still in part Murkoff's doing, since they fucked these people up via these experiments to a point of heightened violence and just generally ruining their lives more than they already had been by whatever they had done prior. That being said, they are still responsible for their own actions.

the stuff with Eddie is definitely the part that most resonated with me through this lens. I remember first playing it, and he scared me the most, for a lot of reasons. One of which being what he represented. He's The Groom. He wants someone to be his Bride, and you're it, even if you don't want that. As someone who's aroace AND already knew at that point that i wasn't a girl, this guy felt like a human embodiment of the pressures to fit what was expected of you. That one day, you'll be married and have kids. If you don't, then you're worthless.

But it's interesting especially, because Waylon IS married. He has kids already. He has that family. The difference is, in this hypothetical trans lens, he's not "really" in a traditional family. He's "pretending", as some might see it, because he's not "really one of them". Being Eddie's Bride is the situation that would've been expected of him, but he said "fuck that", and did his own thing.

Plus, like, with Eddie in particular, you will NEVER be what he wants. He will try to make his perfect bride, but you'll never be it. Even before Mount Massive, no one was what he wanted, judging by all the people he killed. He's a broken man desiring something but never liking his options.

Also just fucking. these lines from eddie make me lose my mind.

That part of you the world sees, they think it's perfect. As God intended. Even these idiots and lunatics see it. There's something special about you. On the surface. But when they look deeper, when anybody with eyes to see looks at what you truly are. That's why they don't trust you. You're not what you're meant to be. Not yet. This place can see into your mind. And the things you've done. Oh, they're a sin, darling.

like HELLO??

I know it's probably just Eddie rambling but it felt like he reached through the screen and grabbed me by the throat like.

Anyway in actual relation to my point. uh. Remember the thing I said about Waylon being a "fake" typical family? This kind of relates to that. Like, on the surface, he seems like he's got this perfect typical American family, he's "as God intended" (which. bro. i swear that exact phrase has been used against trans people so many times). But if you look closer, you'll realize there's more to it than that. Also like, going from the "as God intended" line to the thing about the things he's done being a sin, like hmmm. Maybe I'm reading into that too much, considering we know Eddie wants to make you into his Bride, so of course he's gonna think stuff like that. But still. It's a bit interesting to me.

Plus, it's interesting how, despite having a wife and kids, he's still more... feminized, I guess, than any other characters in this game. Both in the game itself, and within the fandom. Like, not just Eddie literally calling him a woman and trying to make him his bride, but also stuff like a variant near the beginning calling him a "pretty flower" before threatening him, Andrew (one of the staff) licking his face at the beginning of the game... A lot of violence and sexual-ish acts that are often directed at women in media. Even Frank, who I don't have as much to say about here, has some weirdly sexual undertones to his whole cannibalism thing.

This isn't entirely related but one part of the game that still sticks with me but I don't see mentioned as much, is near the beginning. Those guys stabbing the dead staff member. One of them remarks that "there are no observers here" and "do you think you're different? Something special?", which I think helps cement the whole idea that he's treated the same as the rest of people being exploited by Murkoff now. There's no turning back to that "ideal" life you were hiding in before. Hell, that's definitely reinforced more at the end of the game, when you choose to publish your footage, knowing Murkoff will come after you for it, and probably ruin your life. Maybe there's more interesting things to glean from that, but i thought they were interesting lines nonetheless.

anyway, overall I know this is probably just the ramblings of a trans/generally queer person reading WAY too much into a character that I happened to resonate with when i played the game, but i thought maybe it would be interesting for others to understand what would lead me to this conclusion? Anyway, that's all i've got on the subject right now, so I hope it was at least a little interesting.

JUST LOOK AT HIM.. !!!!

oh my god I love drawing Miles so much..

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The real question in The Evil Within is how Sebastian never broke any bones over all the falling that he does

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Everytime I watch a review/deep dive of The Evil Within, i’m always majorly disappointed. Instead of people talking about what they liked and disliked, theories, game mechanics, what could be improved/expanded upon, etc etc.. We’re just met with TEW being compared to RE4.

Like😭😭I want a TEW review. Not an RE4 review. Both games are amazing and have such great things to offer to players. But why is TEW so scrutinized?

also to add: one of the main complaints i see about TEW is the survival aspect. like… it’s a SURVIVAL horror game. cmon now…

i'm rewatching npmd

(again.)

and when max says shit-lips

richie goes "it's lip-schitz, richard lipschitz"

and i want to point out he said his first name too (his full first name)

and i feel like this is a trans richie thing like he's so used to correcting people on his first name

idk

They never bring up bisexual boy with lame ass straight girlfriend. what about her

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

when he has blue hair and pronouns 🥰🥺💖

REALLY RUTH? A STAR WARS ANALOGY? NEED I GO INTO WHYYYY ATTACK ON TITAN IS SUPERIOR IN EVERY POSSIBLE WAY??

(i think i am slowly joining the huge and massively growing CULT that is richie kinnies)