我确实嗑cp而且这几天在重温，可一看现实当下老鼠曾在说什么话我就气得不行。与此同时，长毛在坐监。回想不久前的过去，长毛和长期战友拉埋天窗很浪漫。岑也很浪漫。那时那里还有更多媒体。

《多得他》的叠词好可爱

Headline in The Bismarck Tribune, August 1, 1921.

非要每天只能喝甜味的热水 快疯了每天渴死都睡不着觉 非要喝便宜宾馆的壶煮的热水 但是却觉得洗衣机不干净

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

this is another scene that absolutely lights my brain on fire -

There's a lot going on here and imo the way Felix reacts to Annabel talking shit about Oliver is SO telling from a characterization standpoint. Like Annabel is essentially telling him "no one likes your boy bestie and the girls think he's weird." It's so interesting because Felix doesn't necessarily *defend* Oliver here, he doesn't enlighten her to his tragic backstory, doesn't tell her "actually he's really inspirational because you don't know what he's gone through to be here." He instead just gently chastises her for being harsh and snobby and then....the next scene is literally Felix fucking her while Oliver watches. THIS IS INSANE LOL. So much to unpack.

First of all, it's definitely worth mentioning that Felix DOES hype Oliver up to the people who truly matter to him (his parents, his sister, etc). Like Elspeth is fully aware of Oliver's tragic and triumphant backstory before Oliver even arrives. She's also been told that Oliver is intelligent and handsome ("I told you he wasn't a minger" said looking so pleased with himself for bringing a handsome boy home LOL). Venetia has also clearly heard all about how much Felix likes Oliver ("oh I see why Felix likes you so much.") These statements put what happens here with Annabel in a very unique context. It's almost like...Felix doesn't want to share these amazing things about Oliver with his peer group at school. We talk all the time about Oliver gatekeeping Felix but not enough about how Felix is kinda gatekeeping Oliver, especially from the girls at Oxford. Felix doesn't want irrelevant people at Oxford knowing how amazing Oliver is because Felix wants Oliver and his inspirational achievements all to himself. Hm it's almost like Felix and Oliver BOTH struggle with boundaries bc they're both terminally obsessed with each other lol.

What happens after this scene is enough to make me clinically insane LOL. The cutaway is literally Oliver bricked up about to cum untouched while crying and watching as Felix fucks the girl who was just talking shit about him!! The rituals are SO intricate here hahah. In my mind - it's almost like Felix is getting off to the fact that this girl doesn't know about his little secrets with Oliver. She's only allowed to see the most surface levels of him and Felix is literally turned on by the fact that other people don't have access to Oliver the way he does. He'll leave the blinds open while he fucks her in plain sight BUT he won't share even the most basic details about his close relationship with Oliver. He keeps Oliver all for himself but lets the world see him fucking Annabel. It's an insane metaphor honestly and so telling as to what is sacred vs. what's meaningless to Felix. Felix doesn't want to share Oliver just as much as Oliver doesn't want to share Felix. Two sides of the same coin imo, just expressed differently!

Steve: You said you put a cat in a box and buried it.

Reece: NO I DIDN’T

或许我应该转变心态 像14年他说的 即使徒劳无功

最近扫Ze的ao3 tag

简中人喜欢借这机会夹带点对此地的讽刺

英语人有讽刺美国和乌国的，有讽刺俄国和观众的

俄语人恨透了Ze

乌语人真的很喜欢那位顾问

Ficbook上有个人恨泽却在扫tag......

看到一个婉儿粉极力“澄清”太平公主小时候没被rape过、成年后不养男宠，她用来支撑论点的逻辑（“被性侵过的人都有心理问题 都会自杀 而太平公主很阳光”、“当时避孕方法不成熟 有男宠肯定会接连怀孕”），跟tudor fandom这边一对比，真的是文化差异太明显，倒不是相应历史时期的文化差异，是现代的两种文化中女性思想的差异。

tlw对不起喽 灯火阑珊看完我决定必须要二刷

下周

5.25 in9的the last weekend播出

5.26 什么意思游戏直播

5.27 市松寿ゞ謡出新歌

如果没看错的话赵紫阳家书柜里有俩queen's guard纪念品摆件 可爱…… 我猜是孙子孙女辈的带回去的吧