There Was A New Colleague At Work Today And At Her First Day She Immediately Tried To Boss Me Around???

Only got half a bowl of instant noodles in my stomach for the entire day today

记在这里 回国意味着每天吃不饱饭&不能带东西回来&好几天不能洗澡

well.

抱玉人这么话本风的短语，用在这首无比俏皮风格的歌词里面，还可以这么自然不突兀地共存

kkbox推了中秋歌单，给在不同地方望着同一轮圆月的人。从歌单里我第一次看了《爱回家》歌词，但又想到，他没有妈妈了。

看了几本书就以为自己名医

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

记在这里 回国意味着每天吃不饱饭&不能带东西回来&好几天不能洗澡

I feel like any discussion of class in saltburn ultimately just sort of falls apart especially in conversations dominated by americans. it's where we constantly get the weird "upper middle class" takes and jokes. not only is oliver not upper middle class, but felix is not even moderately more wealthy than he is. he is living on what is basically an entirely different planet than oliver. the cattons are literally landed gentry, with the title and the massive fuck off castle to show for it. there is no true equivalent to that kind of social class in other countries especially in the usa but it is absolutely important to factor in. felix isn't just a rich kid, he's an aristocrat and heir apparent. it's honestly just insane to think about that level of disparity lol

才6度啊，我还以为零下了呢，冷到《暗涌》突然闯进脑海，差点唱出声音来给自己打气（？）

This is just too cute I can’t 🥺

Not only the sun moon joke, or the title of scholar, but also the struggle with salutation. It is so real…… (Or lack of struggle for him, actually?)

In my writing every male will be like this in sex scenes.

god i love sensitive boys, they’re so cute when they come and they twitch and tremble and make all kinds of noises and seem to lose all control

this is another scene that absolutely lights my brain on fire -

There's a lot going on here and imo the way Felix reacts to Annabel talking shit about Oliver is SO telling from a characterization standpoint. Like Annabel is essentially telling him "no one likes your boy bestie and the girls think he's weird." It's so interesting because Felix doesn't necessarily *defend* Oliver here, he doesn't enlighten her to his tragic backstory, doesn't tell her "actually he's really inspirational because you don't know what he's gone through to be here." He instead just gently chastises her for being harsh and snobby and then....the next scene is literally Felix fucking her while Oliver watches. THIS IS INSANE LOL. So much to unpack.

First of all, it's definitely worth mentioning that Felix DOES hype Oliver up to the people who truly matter to him (his parents, his sister, etc). Like Elspeth is fully aware of Oliver's tragic and triumphant backstory before Oliver even arrives. She's also been told that Oliver is intelligent and handsome ("I told you he wasn't a minger" said looking so pleased with himself for bringing a handsome boy home LOL). Venetia has also clearly heard all about how much Felix likes Oliver ("oh I see why Felix likes you so much.") These statements put what happens here with Annabel in a very unique context. It's almost like...Felix doesn't want to share these amazing things about Oliver with his peer group at school. We talk all the time about Oliver gatekeeping Felix but not enough about how Felix is kinda gatekeeping Oliver, especially from the girls at Oxford. Felix doesn't want irrelevant people at Oxford knowing how amazing Oliver is because Felix wants Oliver and his inspirational achievements all to himself. Hm it's almost like Felix and Oliver BOTH struggle with boundaries bc they're both terminally obsessed with each other lol.

What happens after this scene is enough to make me clinically insane LOL. The cutaway is literally Oliver bricked up about to cum untouched while crying and watching as Felix fucks the girl who was just talking shit about him!! The rituals are SO intricate here hahah. In my mind - it's almost like Felix is getting off to the fact that this girl doesn't know about his little secrets with Oliver. She's only allowed to see the most surface levels of him and Felix is literally turned on by the fact that other people don't have access to Oliver the way he does. He'll leave the blinds open while he fucks her in plain sight BUT he won't share even the most basic details about his close relationship with Oliver. He keeps Oliver all for himself but lets the world see him fucking Annabel. It's an insane metaphor honestly and so telling as to what is sacred vs. what's meaningless to Felix. Felix doesn't want to share Oliver just as much as Oliver doesn't want to share Felix. Two sides of the same coin imo, just expressed differently!