当年撒切尔还跟手下商议过送什么礼物给做为总理的他……

冲水按钮很久坏了也不修 攒脏水冲马桶 （所以也是正好合了心意才不会去修吧）于是经常没有水用要等待 ｜ 我上厕所总不让我关门 是不是有病？？？

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

好喜欢这期眼球 跑马灯也有亮点

I see a lot of posts saying "teach boys about consent".

While that is true, a lot of parents will do that and fail to see how their own actions are the problem.

If you've spanked him, he's less likely to understand consent.

If you've forced him to sit on Santa's lap, he's less likely to understand consent.

If you've forced him to give hugs and kisses to family members, he's less likely to understand consent.

If you've grabbed him in order to force him to sit still, he's less likely to understand consent.

If you've labeled him as "too sensitive" for not wanting to be touched, he's less likely to understand consent.

If you've assumed he's okay with something because he technically allowed it even though he felt pressured, he's less likely to understand consent.

If you're only going to criticize his actions but not your own, it won't work.

这比粉红还可怕啊，太traumatizing了，感觉她简直是paranoid

发现一个规律，中国人好感普京，会写普京梦女/梦男文和抹布普京文，俄国人好感普京，会写普京攻，还有各种泽连斯基受的文（攻不只普京），俄国人写不写梦女/梦男文我就不知道了。（我最近这是都看了些啥啊

Harry, unable to cope with the lack of Voldemort's presence in his life, feels guilt and silently grieves since the absence in his soul became apparent. He hallucinates Voldemort looking half-dead and decomposing, haunting and comforting him at the same time.

其实是因为看到了一篇网友疑似女友粉的日志随笔，虽然都没有讲明，但我确实对于别人对他的念想有一些敏锐的洞察能力，或许不该说敏锐，而是太熟悉他的相关事情和字词，又总能在看到疑似段落的时候慢下来仔细读。

看到一个歌名《明日再会》。在听《mad》，想起颁奖礼。羡慕徒弟。想看小林给黄填歌词，顺便想起《最高分数》。

this is another scene that absolutely lights my brain on fire -

There's a lot going on here and imo the way Felix reacts to Annabel talking shit about Oliver is SO telling from a characterization standpoint. Like Annabel is essentially telling him "no one likes your boy bestie and the girls think he's weird." It's so interesting because Felix doesn't necessarily *defend* Oliver here, he doesn't enlighten her to his tragic backstory, doesn't tell her "actually he's really inspirational because you don't know what he's gone through to be here." He instead just gently chastises her for being harsh and snobby and then....the next scene is literally Felix fucking her while Oliver watches. THIS IS INSANE LOL. So much to unpack.

First of all, it's definitely worth mentioning that Felix DOES hype Oliver up to the people who truly matter to him (his parents, his sister, etc). Like Elspeth is fully aware of Oliver's tragic and triumphant backstory before Oliver even arrives. She's also been told that Oliver is intelligent and handsome ("I told you he wasn't a minger" said looking so pleased with himself for bringing a handsome boy home LOL). Venetia has also clearly heard all about how much Felix likes Oliver ("oh I see why Felix likes you so much.") These statements put what happens here with Annabel in a very unique context. It's almost like...Felix doesn't want to share these amazing things about Oliver with his peer group at school. We talk all the time about Oliver gatekeeping Felix but not enough about how Felix is kinda gatekeeping Oliver, especially from the girls at Oxford. Felix doesn't want irrelevant people at Oxford knowing how amazing Oliver is because Felix wants Oliver and his inspirational achievements all to himself. Hm it's almost like Felix and Oliver BOTH struggle with boundaries bc they're both terminally obsessed with each other lol.

What happens after this scene is enough to make me clinically insane LOL. The cutaway is literally Oliver bricked up about to cum untouched while crying and watching as Felix fucks the girl who was just talking shit about him!! The rituals are SO intricate here hahah. In my mind - it's almost like Felix is getting off to the fact that this girl doesn't know about his little secrets with Oliver. She's only allowed to see the most surface levels of him and Felix is literally turned on by the fact that other people don't have access to Oliver the way he does. He'll leave the blinds open while he fucks her in plain sight BUT he won't share even the most basic details about his close relationship with Oliver. He keeps Oliver all for himself but lets the world see him fucking Annabel. It's an insane metaphor honestly and so telling as to what is sacred vs. what's meaningless to Felix. Felix doesn't want to share Oliver just as much as Oliver doesn't want to share Felix. Two sides of the same coin imo, just expressed differently!

Um.

今天洗澡时候在浴室门上写他的名字，感觉很奇怪，我是说这个名字，仿佛从不认识这个名字、它的写法

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.