Is This Traditional Or Do You Have Some Mean Ass Texture Brushes Brother?

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Yes.

Damn the hurricane headed for Florida went from a cat one to a cat five in less than 24 hours.

Fun fact; in recorded history it’s only been one of seven to do that.

I might be cooked yall.

(Of course it’s one with a lame ass name too, tf kinda name is Milton. At least Helene was a classy name. Might just get my ass beat by a bitch named fucking Milton.)

Felt. Seen. Heard. Not to mention how guilt for commuting minor misdeeds and getting reprimanded feels like someone sticking hot iron in your central nervous system.

Like I know it’s not that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things, but before I spent almost a decade in therapy, shame and guilt and embarrassment were so visceral that the feeling was unbearable, beyond the point of a physical cringe, but to the degree that I felt the need to flee, to run and hide. Remove myself from whatever is causing the sensation post-haste.

They still are sometimes. Not often, but occasionally they still are.

Do you know how hard it is to “be yourself” when the very concept of potentially even feeling embarrassed reminds you of being splashed with boiling water? When I want to dance or sing, or feel or do something in front of people out of goofiness or joy, but the fear of feeling embarrassed at all stops you? The fear of a misstep? The fear of other people’s thoughts? The ones you can’t hear, but god, you know they’re there?

It’s awful.

Sometimes I wonder if I’ve ever been unapologetically myself outside of my room, if anyone has ever even truly seen me and my mind work like a clock made of glass, or if I present myself to the world as a shard of a shell, not even a sliver of who I am for fear of my own embarrassment.

see realistically i'm aware that people often block others for minor things that have no moral standing. this is a healthy and normal thing to do to curate your online experience. i do this myself. however, when i've been blocked by someone it's clearly because i've committed some deep immoral sin that they've uncovered and it's only a matter of time before it comes out and everyone turns against me for my horrible actions. obviously.

Get that yaoi my man

Add black and yellow and you’re golden baby.

Dear god I sit in chairs like a heathen when I’m bored while also stressed. Am I even sitting at this point? What IS this?

Currently want to puke from stress.🤟🏻

My mental health is very steadily deteriorating, I need a vacation and like a week of self care immediately. I am having to actively focus on not dissociating or thinking too hard about my school or I risk a panic attack. Or my heart giving, out I don’t know.

The problem is thorough self care takes energy and spare time I don’t have.

Why is it designed like this. Who decided this was a good way to do this. I want to leave. Europe take me to where there’s work life balance and I’m not in danger of being mowed down by bullets or hate crimed in the streets for my sexuality.

I’m pretty sure the quartering act makes this illegal, no? Same shit British soldiers did to us I believe. Entered your home without consent and just took whatever they felt like. In search of rebellion weapons and whatnot.

What has this country come to.

Oop yeah this is going on the blog. We fucken hate ai in here

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