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The Homes of Hidden Animals Series by Jeniak

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“We are a way for the Cosmos to know itself”

i haven’t seen anyone post these yet, the tropical rouge precure website updated with an official synopsis and character bios! here they are (there may be slight inaccuracies because this is via google translate with edits for grammar to make it more readable, i did my best)

Series synopsis:

I’m a first year who transferred from a junior high school in the city this spring!

The day I moved to my new home on this island, I met a secret at the sea. The girl’s name is “Laura”, and in fact… she’s a “mermaid”!

“Grand Ocean, the land of mermaids” in the sea was deprived of “motivation power” by the “Witch of Mawashi” who lives at the bottom of the dark sea, and everyone lost motivation. If human motivation is lost, the world will be in trouble…!

That’s why Laura came to the land alone in search of “Legendary Warrior Pretty Cure”.

Meanwhile, after appearing on land, Laura is caught by the servant of the witch who turns around and is in a big pinch!

Cure Summer / Manatsu Natsumi

A first-year junior high school student who is as bright as the everlasting summer sun and motivated to do various things!

The type whose body moves before thinking, “Let’s do the most important thing now!” At any time.

On the day I moved from my hometown of Minami Nojima to Aozora City, I had a shocking encounter with Laura, a “mermaid” in the sea.

I cherish the lipstick that my mother gave me. The habit is “Tropica!”.

Her “Lip” charm point transforms her into “Cure Summer”!

Birthday: August 1st

Favorite thing: Everything tropical, school

Cure Coral / Sango Suzumura

I just love cute things, and I’m a fashionable first year!

Manatsu’s classmate. A type who can be kind to others and can get along with anyone immediately.

My house is a cosmetics shop in the city, and I know a lot about makeup and cosmetics.

Her “Cheek” charm point transforms her into “Cure Coral”!

Birthday: May 9th

Favorite things: Collecting cute things, makeup

Cure Papaya / Minori Ichinose

A very knowledgeable second year middle school student who likes to read books!

Honor student with the highest grade in the class. A type who has a poker face and doesn’t show much emotion, but holds herself firmly.

She has loved “Mermaid Princess” since she was a child and is familiar with the legends and stories of mermaids.

Her “Eyes” charm point transforms her into “Cure Papaya”!

Birthday: November 21st

Favorite thing: Reading a book

Cure Flamingo / Asuka Takizawa

A third-year junior high school student with a strong sense of justice and excellent motor skills!

At first glance, she’s cool and you want to get closer to her, and she’s an older sister who takes good care of her juniors.

In fact, there are some surprising aspects to her such as being good at playing cute animal games and cooking.

Her “Hair” charm point transforms her into “Cure Flamingo”!

Birthday: October 15th

Favorite things: Physical activity, cooking

Laura

A “mermaid” girl from the mermaid country, Grand Ocean!

Manatsu and her are the same age. A self-confident person who can honestly say whatever she thinks.

In order to fulfill my dream of becoming the next Queen of Grand Ocean, I came to look for “Legendary Warrior Pretty Cure”.

As a supporter of the Precure, she will live on land with Manatsu.

Favorite thing: Singing a song

Kururun

A sea fairy from the Grand Ocean. The mermaid queen’s pet.

You can always relax at your own pace. Its bark is “Kururun ~!”

Favorite things: Shellfish cookies

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Sometimes I just feel hopeless about all of the trauma I carry. I have ongoing issues with inflammatory injuries and I know that’s linked to long-term stress, as are a bunch of other diseases. And so many of my responses to things and how I see the world are colored by the way I experienced life as a kid and it just makes me feel like I’m never going to be normal. I crave but am terrified of intimacy of any kind, and this was only worsened by emotional trauma as a teen and young adult. I just feel constantly detached, like I’m not quite a part of things, and like what even is the point if I’m never going to experience life normally anyway? Like I know no one has a “normal” experience but come on. It seems like I’m never going to be able to enjoy things the way it seems everyone else does, like I’m just going to constantly feel like the walking wounded, never quite able to open up or keep up. Idek this isn’t even making any sense. I’m just feeling pretty mournful over everything today.

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I like art, I like paintings, drawings, texts, or any type of creational exposure. It makes me feel good, it makes everything easier to me. And, even though most people during all my life said that it would never be enough for me to survive, today, I honestly advise anyone to go after it. Do you like writing? Are you happy making animations? Painting? Dancing? DO IT! Go after it, because working on a 9-5 job will either make you happy or give you money.  Not anymore, not on this world. So, if you are supposed to struggle with bills, might as well do it while being happy.

I decided it was about time for me to write online about eating disorders and what it takes to truly recover from it.

How to do it? I don't know - yet.

I found myself again undereating And overexercising and somehow I found it to be disturbing. It wasn't my first time doing it, it was definitely not the worst I got. However this time I was older, not a teenager anymore, not as emotional about it and for my luck, I had Instagram.

Might be a good question to ask, how Instagram helped me? Showed me - since I was for a long time searching about diets and exercises- some bloggers defending something called 'intuitive eating'. And what is this? It is basically some women that, tired of suffering during their entire life from undereating and fighting eating disorders caused by what they called the "diet culture", decided to study about nutrition, most of them are professionals of the area, and then decided to speak to other woman about how society has convinced them to be under their set-point weight all for the sake of the "perfect female's body".

Most of them suffered, as I do, of anorex1a nervosa and put their bodies under an extreme stress. All the idea behind what they defend is not that complicated but I can't say I truly absorb it. I am indeed still trying to recover, still trying to eat what I want, to not worry about how fit I look and all that :good: stuff everybody already knows about.

One thing however, I found to be the most important point I got from them: society does tell woman to undereat, it does convince us that if we are not skinny and fit we are not -truly- enough, it does makes us believe there is the ideal body, the ideal BMI - this last one has a dark history on my point of view - and it does for sure put in our minds some crazy productivity standards when it is up to working out. At least, now, I know it is not ok to eat less than 1000 kcal, workout twice a day for 2h straight and weight myself almost everyday.

And that is might point about what it takes to recover from a eating disorder: recognize it, study about it and work on how you see and deal with food and your own body, accept and start to listen to yourself, not to the calorie's app or the fitness blogger that has an intense workout routine while eating only protein shakes and bars. You know what you need, honor yourself and your body. It is all a process but I am happy that I started it and I have people by my side that care and are helping me with it.