She Will Not Take Him From Me.

every time i talk to you, I feel electricity zap through my body, my eyes relaxing and a burning passion to be as close as i can physically be to you.

Trigger Warning

i laid down on the hard sidewalk, staring at the stars while tears filled up in my eyes.

I impulsively messaged a old fp & while he instantly responded with positivity like he always has.

Simultaneously, my current fp messaged me back, responding to my response of his story on insta. 

I don’t even know why I’m crying, sure, maybe it’s because my dad has cancer, my childhood friend/bully died the other day, my uncle is in the hospital after being found unconscious on the floor, we are being kicked out our apartment, and im here weeping over stupid shit like why doesn’t he love me back…

he broke my heart…

FUCK YOU! I TRIED TO FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME! I WAS HAPPY FOR YOU AND YOUR SUCCESSES! I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR YOU & YOU TREAT ME LIKE THIS! FUCK YOU!

Rivi is 22 years old. they use He/Him & She/Her pronouns.

they have been professionally diagnosed with:

panic disorder

depression

PTSD

they are currently questioning if they have aspd, bpd, ppd & stpd. They might also be on the schizospec.

they do see a therapist & psychiatrist.

also pls don’t hesitate to message him if ur curious about anything or just wanna strike up a convo!!

also, feel free to reblog. i don’t mind.

i am having those thoughts again…

i just want to belong to someone…

any applications??? ❤️

you wanted a life with me! but you said my identity was false & full of delusion!! YOU SAID YOU COULDN’T BE WITH SOMEONE WITH TOO MUCH DIFFERENCE OF OPINIONS!

how could you lead me on like that? how could you hurt me?

they don’t understand you, my beloved.

but i do.

i want to spend my life devoted to you.

hope you feel better soon <3

thank you so much. it means a lot.

i love u Poptart.

always.