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I don’t know if it has to do with the neurodivergence or the nonhumanity but my relationship with pets is a bit odd. they are more siblings or children than anything else. we are both creatures which is something humans often fail to recognize/respect.
the rats I take care of are my friends. not mine through ownership, but mine through relationship.
I doubt this view is really all that uncommon in the nonhuman community, but I have yet to see much talk about it.
Humans are so scared of realising they're animals like all the rest of us, that they have to make up some excuse as to why they're different. Those excuses basically boil down to experiences that are universal to most life and assuming it's exclusive to them. Like no, love and compassion are not uniquely human. Most social animals share those traits. Art and beauty aren't either. Nor is language. Humans are animals like the rest of us. And that's okay. Nature is a beautiful thing, and you are part of it
Hello! wanted to ask some questions about schizoaffective bipolar type; because we've been dx'ed with bipolar type 1 already but aren't really trusting of anyone in psych-therapy circles to reveal any details about my schizospec symptoms. Aside from the fact that psychiatry in my corner of eastern europe is very anti-dx in general. I had to fight to get taken seriously with bipolar for them to finally stop giving me antidepressants without mood stabilisers kind of deal.
What makes bipolar be schizoaffective and not just bipolar with some schizospec symptoms? How does schizoaffective manifest for you? i've read enough regarding actual dx criteria for schizoaffective and i would fall into schizoaffective but i wanted to hear a first-person point of view.
Feel free to ignore this if you're not comfortable, or dm me instead if it's more ok for you.
thank you!
Hello! I totally understand being hesitant to disclose psychotic symptoms. It’s for different reasons but it took me a very long time to get proper treatment as I was unable to understand that my symptoms were 1. indicative of a disorder 2. severe enough to warrant treatment. Luckily where I live I have access to a lot of resources for psychotic people, so I eventually have found a regime of medications that helps me to think clearly.
I think for me the difference between bipolar with psychotic features and schizoaffective was that i was in a near constant state of psychosis before treatment. In bipolar, usually psychosis is sort of treated as the end of the road: the most severe mood symptoms can get. Honestly there’s a ton of disagreement over what schizoaffective even means. Personally I define my version of schizoaffective as schizophrenia with bipolar episodes, but that’s my personal definition and definitely doesn’t apply to everyone.
Before treatment I was constantly confused and unable to take care of myself. Some of my psychosis was related to my nonhumanity (I consider my god/angel identity to be endelic due to this), but not all of it is. And my nonhumanity is definitely not all psychotic. I really am a fae creature. I know a lot of my beliefs would be written off as crazy talk if I explained them to my psychiatrist. But ultimately I know myself best.
Human definitions for mental conditions are flawed and very subjective/fluid. Unfortunately, I love labels so I choose to identify with the diagnoses I’ve been given.
Sorry if this is a very long rambly response. I love talking about this sort of thing. If you have any more questions/discussion feel free to dm me!
tags! (no pressure): @canidclown @murruspins @canine-brained and anyone else who wants to join
i found a cool tag game on twitter and i really wanna import it (o^ ^o)
this picrew + the last song you listened to :]
no pressure tags: @blood-loving-leech @overtaken-boredom @lesbianthatyaps @kameonerd566 @hexedvampire @laczki @anonymous-shxtposter @fleurafae @flovqy + anyone who wants to do it <3
HEY THERIANS!!!
Reblog if you wouldn’t mind compliments based around your theriotype(s)! :D
Short infographic-style thing on how fae veils work for us. I attempted to put the secondary veil in the demo on the second picture but it ended up looking too messy and gave up and put a disclaimer instead. It's impossible to really accurately portray it visually; since the focus shifts like a seesaw according to what i need or want to look like to myself at least; since what others expect me to look like is out of my control therefore the primary veil is seen.
This is written from the perspective of a fae creature / fae beast however some holotheres might also find this relateable to some extent.
the way my limbs operate is like in veggietales, how they just materialize hands when they need them
I just saw your post, if you’re still doing stimboards could you do one for dragonkin?
x - x - x x - o - x x - x - x
dragonkin stimboard!! i had a lot of fun with this one, i really hope you like it ^_^
being physically nonhuman explains why I don’t really experience mental shifts. I am always mentally me. My brain is not human, and so I never shift from a more human brain to a more nonhuman brain. I just am.
Hey, shout out to the otherkin, therian, alterhumans, and any other non-humans with "weird" or "gross" ___-types.
Shout out to the otherkin, therian, alterhumans, and any other non-humans with "weird" or "gross" instincts, urges, feelings, or habits due to their non-human-ness.
Shout out to the otherkin, therian, alterhumans, and any other non-humans who have ever had to hide their own species behind a trigger warning.
Shout out to the otherkin, therian, alterhumans, and any other non-humans who feel like they don't even "fit in" in our own community. I'm in the same position.
We need to have each other's backs.
I tend to hiss and make other noises either when startled or when I’m content
Animals of Tumblr!!
How vocal do you tend to be?
Do you unintentionally hiss or growl? Do you get the urge to howl and bark, to croak and roar?
I'm asking cause I tend to vocalize a lot, and I wanna see how many other critters do the same
looking back on my childhood there are so many things that make so much sense from a nonhuman perspective. I have horrible memory, but I do know that I was absolutely convinced that I was adopted growing up. I never felt like I was a true part of the family that I belonged to. I never felt a sense of community with people.
now it’s obvious that this feeling arose from the fact that I’m not human, and that I am a changeling. I belong to another realm of existence.
there also comes my obsession with all things fantasy and fairy tales. One of the first books I ever got for myself was a huge collection of the grimms’ fairy tales. I especially loved animal stories. I identified with them so much, and it’s no wonder why.
there are a lot more examples of my behaviors being very off putting to humans, but I’m mainly focusing on my internal feelings in this post.
anyway I’m curious if any other nonhumans have had similar realizations about their childhoods.
as another fae animal, I think we’re naturally good at mimicking those around us. We mimic their forms and we mimic their behavior even though we are naturally distinct from it. By that I mean that we are at our core different, however we’re good at making it seem like we’re a part of this human society.
I don’t know if what I’m saying makes sense exactly, it’s hard to put into words. But I think what you’re saying is an interesting conversation, and I’d like to hear other changelings’ views.
at times i wonder, was *i* specifically switched in for my human counterpart when i was young because my individual fae character makes it easy for me to mimic my parental figures, or does my fae character make it easy for me to "leach" personality traits off of guardians and mirror them to make them more likely to accept me as a fake fae child?
is it an inherent changeling/fae trait? Seems likely honestly, as the ability to instinctively mirror traits to people when young while knowing they're only performed will make your survival and blending in more likely; and specially as a fae animal and not a human-like fae.
Just wanted to say if you are anti-endel, anti clinical lycanthrope/zooanthrope, maybe this isn't the best page for you. I may not be any of these but I suffer from delusions due to psychotic features with my depression and part of why I identify as holothere is for this reason.
No, I am not saying that I am against you advising others to get mental help if they want to, but I am against these types of creatures being excluded for something they can't entirely control. So if you are anti-endel, or anti-clinical lycanthrope/zooanthrope, then my page is not for you.
I definitely stim with behaviors from my species!
I sway very frequently. While other snakes do this to judge distance, I do it to self soothe. It really helps me to regulate and to feel more in touch with my ‘type.
Another thing I frequently do is climb. I don’t know if this really counts as stimming, but oh well. I love to reach high places and dangle from branches. It makes me feel very safe and connected to myself. Often when I’ve reached my designated basking branch, I sway and swish all my limbs.
I also flick my tongue frequently for fun and to help me “reset” my face after emoting. So those are just a few behaviors I attribute to being a snake.
the species euphoria and the autistic joy I get from shaking my whole body like I'm trying to get water out of my fur. hits my autistic 'yote brain real good when I full body stim like that.
i usually do it when I'm stressed and trying to "shake off the bad vibes". It really helps me take a second to calm down from any stressful customer interactions and kinda helps me relax a bit.
I also do it involuntarily sometimes whenever I wash my paws or have to get my fur wet. I hate having wet fur, it's overstimulating and uncomfortable for me.
I also sometimes have a big urge to dig especially in like sandy areas or dusty areas. idk what my coyote brain wants to do but...sometimes you just gotta dig a hole and see what happens. plus digging in sand or grainy dirt feels so good sensory wise.
anyone else sometimes stim using a behavior their species does? or just have a behavior from their species/theriotype that they use/find themselves doing a bunch?
I'm so curious to know if other creatures do this too
While I don’t often get the phantom sensation that you describe, I do sometimes feel this little twinge of energy inside me around large hawks or mustelids. It’s a bit of instinctual panic. I too have a worry that predators will see through my disguise.
For the most part I don’t feel like a prey animal, but there are times (especially around certain predators) where I am acutely aware of my place as a small part of the ecosystem.
Fellow small herbivores/prey, when passing past a large dog or whatever seems like a predator to you, do you sometimes get a phantom sensation of said predator biting into you and carrying you in their mouths? Makes me wary to walk too close to large dogs at times, and zoos not to mention.
I can almost feel the teeth in my abdomen and gravity working against me, takes me by surprise most of the time.
I'm lucky i'm a lot larger than most members of my species but instinct doesn't know that; what if the dog sees through the disguise and rushes at me? (takes a step back)
A quick reminder: your nonhuman experiences are your own. They don't have to be 'cute' or 'fun' or 'aesthetic' and don't feel weird if your nonhuman behaviours aren't like the average experiance.
There is no average nonhuman experience, don't think too much about how others perceive your behaviours because it's no one else's business.
If I created a discord server for alterhumans, one that is very inclusive of transspecies identities, IRLs, clinical zoanthropes, physical identifying nonhumans, etc etc; would anyone be interested? I've noticed a severe lack of alterhuman/nonhuman spaces on discord that tends to exclude the aforementioned beings - they tend to only focus on therianopathy (which isnt a bad thing) it'd also be 15+
knits you one of those silly little snake sweaters so you don't get cold
^_^ thank you!!
me irl
You cannot spend your whole life attempting to appeal to people who dislike you. You do not need to make your identity palatable for those who refuse to understand.
There is nothing wrong with believing you are actually an animal. If others say you are crazy or delusional for that, then so be it. Their opinions do not matter.
Just because they want to contort themselves to fit into the ideals of anti-kin doesn't mean the rest of us have to.
And if you think I'm crazy for believing I am "actually" a coyote? Take it up with someone who gives a shit.
affirmations
i am so good at pretending to be human
my human disguise looks basically just like the real thing
i can withstand the feeling of my wings and tail being cramped for several hours in a row
it's really normal or even cute when i growl
i can easily partake in human conversations