˹you Are Not The Mistakes You Have Made˼

That was one of the few days when I let the serenity of the moment wash over me, like a shy wave caressing the shore after the storm.

I could feel her kicking once, twice and three times, impatient. My serenity meant very little to her, but I could understand why, it wasn’t complete. Just the two of us was enough, but it wasn’t complete. I let my hands find the spot she was, my palm where her little feet would maybe kick again.

“He’s late, isn’t he?” No answer. I smiled. “Don’t sulk, Lilly, Dad is in his way.” My words wouldn’t be enough to convince her, but I made myself even more comfortable on the crouch, relaxing even further.

I started murmuring a song to her, our favorite song, letting the smooth tons of the harmony envelop us, calming her. I could feel the change, her anxiety going way with the song and I could help feel a pang of emotion. She was relaxing with my voice. She knew how safe and wanted she is. Everything would be fine.

The sound of the keys, the door opening, was the perfect excuse for me to recompose myself. Quick, I erased from my face any trace of the treacherous tears my eyes. But of course, I couldn’t fool my husband just the way I wanted. It took only one look in my face for him to know, intuitively, how my confused and sensitive feelings were interfering.

“Not again, May.” Despite the scolding nature of his words, Rayan walked up to me with gentle eyes and a small smile tugging on his lips. “Lilly gets upset when you cry, I get too.”

I waited for him to sit next to my legs, hands reaching for mines, before I could say anything “I’m happy.” I confessed, shyly. “It’s just… she really likes my singing voice.” Rayan’s smile grew.

“She was kicking again?” He guessed, looking down for a moment before getting his face close to my belly. “You got a lullaby today too, hun? But this time you couldn’t wait for me?” talking with the baby was contagious, we already love let Lilly hear our voices and know us. Rayan kissed the spot when he felt her kicking early this morning, before going out, he didn’t know she had moved and was now kicking in the side, but I didn’t correct him.

I sang again, the same song from before, now adding the lyrics to both of them, one of my hands resting in his hair while the other would still be on my belly. Rayan’s green eyes lit up, recognizing the song.

“Our song.” He whispered, sighing quietly, before his voice joined mine. Lilly got to quiet, the closest of sleep that she could get, but we still sang the song just one more time to her, just to be sure.  

@nicoliharu gave me the permission to post and write something to go along with it. 

I logged into my old IG account where I made all kind of edits and stuff like that for my former "main" fandoms....

some of the people I interacted with are still active, though time flew over them, maybe they changed completely. some are gone; empty accounts without a pfp, "not active anymore" as a bio, or they even ceased to exist on IG, deleting themselves

I felt such a rush of sadness and regret over something so trivial, and still. I joined Tumblr last year (5. 17.) and I already made more meaningful connections that I ever did, in any fandom I was part of

I guess it's thanks to the difference between Tumblr and IG, and the fact that I got older in the meantime, but it still amazes me that there are people I genuinely call my friends, whom I met here. some of them are literally on the other side of the world (hello Brazilian folks!), and yet they are still closer than many people who are with me physically, but physically only

yes, come guys! the mood is awesome, I promise 😉😊

Join Otome’s Little Corner!

So, I created a discord server for Otome Games fans two months ago (wow, it seems like an eternity haha). We don’t have that much people right now, but it still is an active and cozy server for those who want a place to chat.

Our focus is Beemoov games for now, but we have channels for others, too. 

https://discord.gg/bHxBJMCRUe

Alright then, I’m done with the Kinktober writings. I know that October isn’t techincally over, but I have school and I also started writing something else 👀

I don’t take any more requests for Kinktober, but if you sent something and I didn’t write it, feel free to ask again! I don’t ignore asks on purpose, but Tumblr has this bad habit that they often don’t really send them

And now a question: would anyone be interested in something that’s not MCL related? Not game related? Like, a completely independent story???

do you have any fic of amberxcandy? btw i love your fics <3

Heyy! Unfortunately, I dont have any Amber fics. What I do have, though, is this CandyxYael fic!

If you type "masterlist" on my search bar you'll also find a list of all my works!!!

Xoxo

19th century books will kill off a main character in one sentence and then spend 3 pages describing a street

Hey, I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself. Just wanted to tell you that we are missing you, so (no pressure) come back when you will be ready.

ahhh this ask was literally the first thing I saw when I came back after a short break, sorry for only answering now ~_~

(I have to be honest, the thought of not answering at all crossed my mind so I could just see it in my askbox forever, it made me so happy <3 now I must create a tag on my blog for kind things!!! smh)

anyway haha yeah, I'm really sorry for this "wave" of activity - I'm either on the net 24 / 7, or I ignore everyone and everything until the leaves start falling down, there's no in between. I'm trying to be more active and write more! and really, my endless gratitude and love to anyone who cares about me enough to leave a reassuring message like this

omgg thank you @momiyi-chan​, @astreia-oniria​, @satansfaery​ and @amrrygae​ for tagging me ❤️

Weird but I accept it

Tagging: @jockallensworld​, @marycecilyy​ and @myfallenangel04​ (sorry if you have done this already)

with the discussion happening on my blog tonight here’s a “are you a main or side character uquiz” that i have yet to take so i think it’d be fun if we all shared our results to each other, let’s find out

Ah, but it’s much funnier to imagine random scenes that show their other personality traits, and these gotta be connected somehow

i have to remind myself that i don't need to write a whole book for every character i make. sometimes characters can exist simply for the sake of being sexy

soooo as you can see, I'm back to my bs

I still have requests to do, so please don't send me new requests. I don't want to close my askbox, I trust you guys that you understand if I ask this

now I have to go sleep, so good night, sorry I left for some time, thanks for your patience and I'll try to hurry! Tania out ✌️