the stars were all aligned, and i found comfort in you instead of the self destruction i knew so well. it was like you had moved the stars into alignment, you were so heavenly to me. but as soon as you left, the stars began to fall from the skies. my constellations broke, and stars began to fade. i returned back to the self destruction. sharp blades found their home on my ghostly skin, drugs that people my age shouldn’t even be aware of were my closest friends, i found security in the arms of naked strangers. you were my safety, and now all i crave is danger so that maybe i could feel safe again.
im so understimulated i need to sink my teeth into flesh or something
I don't know how to answer. I know what I think, but words in the head are like voices underwater. They are distorted.
— Jeanette Winterson, Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit
[eating your heart from between your ribs] please know that you are loved
Billie photographed at her 'HIT ME HARD AND SOFT' album listening party in NY (15/05/24).
📸: arturoholmesphotos
Versace (2023), Jean Paul Gaultier (2006), Olivier Theyskens (2019), David Koma (2019), Dolce & Gabbana (2018), Jean Paul Gaultier (2012), Kristian Aadnevik (2008), Olivier Theyskens (2019)
but thats the whole fun in being their personal blood bag . posers
you all will be like “omg vampires 🤭🫣🥴🥰😍🥵” then BALK at the prospect of being nearly drained dry and killed by one. you are so fake and stupid and have no sense of adventure whatsoever. where’s the love. appreciation. because i can’t fucking see it
“stop romanticizing (bad thing)” sorry that i have a poets soul and can see the hidden beauty in the grotesque
Which wolf wins? I guess it really depends, just gotta wait and see.
Ginger Snaps (2000)
You should explore all the cute noises i make when you hurt me, my tortured screams and my pain filled whimpering. Please hurt me.