I’m Repulsive To Everyone I Love

You will never fucking understand what I go through in this specific situation you don’t know and you trying to help me only makes me mad and upset you just don’t fuckjng get it you never will

I don’t know why I try to do anything I am so untalented and fucking retarded and stupid oh my fod I need to die I want to slit my wrists I want to fucking hang my self I hate myself so fucking much I can’t take it I want to kill myself i want to die why haven’t I died yet why am I still here I have no purpose I hate everyone I want to die

I’m an embarrassment to fucking everyone

I hate talking about it. I hate hearing people talk to me. I hate being known. I hate being “out there”. I hate everyone who says they prioritize me then they lie to me. I just wish that I was stable. I wish things were right. I’m so fucking unhappy and I thought I was doing better but I’m just not.

I feel so weird talking to anyone right now. I don’t like it and I don’t want to talk to anybody I want to be left alone forever. I just wish I was dead. It feels like the good times truly could never make up for the misery the rest of my life has to give me. I fucking hate everything. I hate thinking about what comes after. I hate thinking about the death process. I hate it all. I just want it over. I want to escape and just never be known and be alone forever.

I don’t want anyone to have anything to do with me. I feel so depressed and I try not to let these emotions get to me but Jesus Christ it’s so hard not to. My friends all discard me and I get talked over and it’s so tiring.

I just wish I was loved. I wish that I knew I was loved and cared about and praised and adored and whatever the fuck. I wish I didn’t need anyone else’s approval. I’m so fucking over it.

THATMOMENT WHEN YOU ARE THE ENTIRE REASON YOUR BEST FRIEND IS NOT YOUR BEST FRIEND ANTMORE AND YOU FINALLY REALIZE YOU REALLY HAVE FUCKED UP YOUR LIFE BEUOND REPAIR AND YOU WILL ACTUALLY DIE ALONE THAT MOMENT WHEN YOU WILL NEVER BE RELATED IR LOVED EVER AGAIN OH MY GOD IM GOING TO BLEED OUT I HOPE MY BOYFRIEND CATCHES ME

RHAT MOMENT WHEN YOUR BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE IS NOW NOT YOUR BEST FRIEND ANYMORE AND WILL VERY SHORTLY MOVE ON WITHOUT YOU IN THEIR LIFE😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Nobody really loves me anymore. Not even my friends or family or loved ones or partner or fucking anything. I just want to die. I don’t know how to escape this hellish cycle anymore. I don’t know how to be rational or to keep going. There is nothing to live for anymore. I want to kill myself.

I feel sick and dizzy and just angry and apathetic tbh

I need to fucking kill myself

I don’t want to live anymore dear fucking god just fucking kill me fucking kill me why can’t you fucking idiots just fucking kill me what do I have to do to fucking die. Please fucking blow my head off behead me dismember me set me on fire hang me drown me do fucking something and just kill me. I can’t do this anymore

I’m going to account to nothing my prime is up now I’m the ugliest fucking tranny in the entire world not even my own family or boyfriend or best friends see me as a male they’re just pretending Lol I can’t even blame them who fucking looks at me and says I’m a male I’m actually a fucking traumatized raped girl who’s sexual assault made them Fucking trans Oh my fod Lol I’m such a fucking stupid retard I Actually need to kill myself no wonder I was a fucking accident if I wasn’t an accident then my life wouldn’t be going this way but if fucking course God needed a FUCKINGN Jester Clown to laugh at and mock I am worse than fucking Lucifer I am Lucifer I am the fallen Angel from Heaven and that’s why God is being so fucking cruel to me I am Satan and I am getting ounishedplease god rip him out of me I don’t want to be the Devil anymore I want to be okay again and happy butiruin everything I swear Please God Jesus Or whoever If you’re listening please fucking kill me Please kill me I will pray I will worship I will go to church Wednesday and Sunday and Every OTHER FUCKING DAY oh my fod I’ll give up everything if it means Lucifer can get out of my body or if you just fucking Kill me Olease god I’m directly talking to you please listen to me please stop doing this I’m not strong I’m not a soldier I am a fucking weakling Human please stop doing this to me please it hurtsosb ad I will literally give up everything if it means that I can not be this way anymore please just fucking stop or kill me please Fucking Kill me or stop . Imso fucking sick of being like this please kill me. Please fucking kill me please just find a way to kill me I don’t want to do it myself I don’t want to hurt other people but since I already fucking do I might as well have everyone in this fucking house hear the gun go off and hear my bloodpainthee walls oh my god Olease just stop this I can’t be like this anymore I just want to be fucking Normal I want to be Hapoy I want to be aokay again I don’t want to be a fucking depressed worthless sack of shit oh my god please fucking kill me god kill me god fucking kill me god please god please Jesus fucking Kill me

Please fucking Kill memplease fucking Kill me I can’t take living like this anymore I’m shaky my heart hurts my ear is fucked up im sweating I feel nauseous fucking Kill me please make me have a fucking heart attack right now and kill me please fucking Kill me I want to scream it from my lungs oleasefucking kill me please god F stop fucking soiingthis go me please kill me