AAAAAAHHHH I HAVE A MATH TEST TMRW

today is a study day (fortunately or regrettably depending on your perspective). this problem set is really cool and i actually like learning about circuits, which i didn’t expect.

- circuits problem set (88 mins)

- circuits quiz (39 mins)

- advanced circuits lecture

i’m REALLY behind in my course and i need to catch up by the time school starts again so i probably have another 4 hrs of work minimum. it’s finally feeling like crunch time lol

sometimes i feel like school sucks everything out of me. i have all this motivation and excitement at the beginning of the week, but then school happens and i have all this useless homework. meanwhile there is stuff i actually want to do and am interested in... but i never have the chance to do them because i'm so tired and i still have homework to do. i feel like i'm sacrificing a bit too much of my self just to please my school and my teachers

on a brighter note, i think i discovered the identity of the unknown acid! i'm super nervous to go back to the lab now though and collaborate with my team. hopefully i'm right :)

homemade strawb matchas & cozy nights studying 🍓🍵

it's okay not to be productive some weeks.

i feel like i got so little done this week. i had to ask for an extension on my physics work and my essay in english. i barely managed to finish the work i needed this week. but that's okay. sometimes its good to have mental breaks.

a good advice i was given was to separate the work from relaxation.

when you are studying, you are studying. less distractions when you are working, and good mental breaks (like going outside or grabbing a snack). but when you are relaxing, you are relaxing. don't let the guilt of not getting stuff done eat at you.

put it in your schedule to relax or something, but sometimes you need breaks. sometimes its difficult for me to get up and do work, and i feel horrible for not being able to do that. but at the same time, its a sign that my mind and my body needs the rest.

go to sleep <3

my car

the key to surviving grad school (also maybe life but definitely grad school) is to pick a side quest every few months or so. something that brings you joy and that you can get better at over time, independent of whether or not your research or classes are going well. put your need for academic validation to use in a non-academic setting and everything will feel less dire and you will learn you are more than your work

"Anything that is easy for me must be worthless." — Impostor syndrome in a nutshell

I cannot stress the importance of paying attention in language classes in high school. Maybe the reason why your English teacher taught you about unreliable narrators is because a lot of the media around you is written by unreliable narrators posing as reliable. Maybe they gave you assignments on interpreting texts so you could draw your own conclusions about news articles. Some of you clearly thought English classes were useless in high school and now are unable to engage critically with media.

finally finished my online class!

and now i go back to regular school tomorrow…