There Is As Good As No Better Feeling Than Going Back To Losing Weight After A Long Binge For Me

Okay but why do I actually kinda love writing essays

parents brought home huge apples today

And they're really fucking red and have I mentioned just how large they are?

Goodness

i know we’re all mentally ill here and everyone is going to scroll past this but i feel like i have an obligation to make a post like this every few weeks.

i am not romanticizing what i go through at all. i am miserable. this disorder is miserable. please, if there is any hope you can recover, try it. i will be your biggest cheerleader. not because i want to see you gain weight, but because I want to see you live, truly live.

you will probably never make it to your ugw. if you do you will not be happy there, or you will die of complications when you’re finally happy.

Finally added stats y'all :,)

you know you’re deep in an ed when you’re triggered by finding out you have a higher than average birthweight 😭 like wdym i was nine pounds as a newborn? ok fatty

this is so fucking true

u ever see fit ppl n wanna recover for a sec then realize u just carry fat unfortunately and if you gain any weight you’ll just be ugly. cuz yeah

quitting sh to focus on my ed ☺️

loser idiot binges instead of starving

i made a post like "wow my mental health is so much better than it used to be" but then i deleted it cause i remembered that it's actually just as bad, but in a new, different way

i was almost bamboozeled into thinking i got better when i'm actually just a different flavor of miserable now

feeling fatter than ever any oversized clothes but also being scared to wear anything else, because they're my only "safe outfits"