The Thought Of One Day Being Someone's Th!nsp0 Is The Best Thing To Keep Me Going

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૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER 1-2

The last week was shitty in terms of starving myself. I plateaued at 73 and I haven't been gaining which is nice, but I haven't been losing either.

Because of the holidays, birthdays and other events I couldn't avoid eating normal amounts but sadly I have been craving things I haven't craved in a long time and it's making me crazy.

For example I really don't like white bread, yet I broke my 72 hour fast after the 27th hour because I had this instant need for it. I looked at the slice, conteplated only a little and bit into it. It was such a big slice too. I knew I can't eat it, that I shouldn't eat it, yet I still did.

Fucking other weight losing tactics haven't worked on me before only starving myself did. Only restricting my calorie intake to 800-400-200 did. What am I supposed to do? Stop because I failed even at something so simple like not fucking stuffing my mouth?

I even ate KFC like a pig. Ate the grander and the twist thing then drank the pumpkin spice shake. I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't stop. The craving and the hunger for it was too much.

God I wanna cry. I wanna tear everything out. They were so good, but for how long? Until I finished watching a moist critical video, which was 10 minutes long.

Why can't I wait? Why can't I control it? I hate it so much.

I hate food. I don't want it anymore.

U don't have to change everything just the things that matter lol

How can I trigger the honeymoon phase again😭😭

What the hell noone told me losing weight is so addictive. I can already feel my hipbone and ribs so much????

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 1.

Weekends with family is always much harder than just normal weekdays because my mom likes to keep tab if I ate or not and she ususally wants us to eat together, which is fine because it was an OMAD day anyways.

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➁ Hell energy (ginger & lemon) - 117.5 ≈ 118 cal

➀ Sweet bun burger - approx. 524 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemon grass) - 0 cal

➀ Green apple (side to the burger) - 82 cal

Water - 2.4l/2l

Full - 842 cal

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Steps - 7190/10000 - 288 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 288 cal

Aaa i am so bad at blogging damn. I have been neglecting my tumblr so much im sorry :((

I JUST REACHED MY FIRST GW!!!! AAAAA

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 26

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➀ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Monster energy zero - 14 cal

➀ Tortilla with with tuna, corn and light mayo - 211 cal

➀ Tortilla with tuna, corn, broccoli, cheese and tomato sauce - 386 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 611 cal

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Steps - 9482/10000 - 381 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 381 cal