experiment-48
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memory is a monster
the mountain goats/waste isolation pilot plant warning/john irving/allison meir/waste isolation pilot plant warning/arthur miller/the mountain goats
If it’s not at 12000cps of radiation, I’m not eating it. I know people are gonna get mad, but I’m a picky eater and you just have to accept that.
My friend the Geiger counter always makes so many happy sounds when I visit
Dissomutant
[PT: Dissomutant]
Dissomutant, An Dissospecies(link) subterm connected to thinking one is an Mutant and makes the person, whether it be because of delusional or IRL attachments, being an alter that species differs from the body, psychosis, etc., feel disconnected from their external species. This is not for "fun" or voluntary "I wanna be this ✨️", this also doesn't override the external species the person has.
Note: This is not relating to Mutants form the X-Men series, rather Mutanted by radiation and biohazards.
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[Tag] @dissodic-archive
[Made For] Headmate Jini
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i think that when the scientists released me, they put a radio collar on me. idk how it would track me cause im sure the fact that i am highly radioactive would cause issues with any sort of tracking mechanisms. but maybe the radio calls and such i hear in my head from the scientists is that radio collar.
i just remember wearing something that had a blinking light on the end of a short antenna.
i can hear the scientists making observations about me still...even though in this body, i do not wear the collar physically.
maybe they somehow modified it to transmit messages through my brain as well? so that they can communicate with me even if the collar is gone?
its too soon to try and wear collars again even if i feel i should be wearing one. even if it was myself putting the collar on me, it feels too connected to all the trauma.
im not a pet, i don't need a collar. i have too much..pain associated with being made to feel like a dog. i dont wanna trigger that stuff to the surface even if i think having a collar would be affirming in some ways.
im sad that there is so much grief and pain connected to my dog side. i want to embrace it. i want to love being a dog as much as i am a wolf. but right now is not the time and i do not have the mental strength to process that trauma.
sorry for rambling about this constantly. trying to process my thoughts and writing it down helps me process things. talking it out and such.
was listening to this song all day. idk where its from but it was reccomended to me. not even the lyrics really spoke to me its just the background music is so nice.
jed the wolfdog is really the closest ive found to how i look. im a black and white wolfdog that has patterning similar to a husky or a malamute.
like his pattern is so close to mine.
ive been trying to look into what dog breed i might be and i found images of sled dogs that really hit home.
this one especially. i feel like my pattern is a mix between this sled dog and jeds's pattern.
and then the white parts of my fur glow blue at night..
had phantom pain in my tail all day today. i couldn't get my tail to stop being underneath me so i sat on it the entire shift at work and it kept aching :(
kept having a tingling sensation on the back of my neck and shoulder too. must have been my hackles being raised the entire time :(
Radiation won't penetrate a lead wall. Biophysics. 1962.
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