Do Yall Think I’ll Get Shit On For Posting This?

i was born from a lab experiment in which researchers worked to synthesize a person who “deserved it” (paper fails to clarify what was meant by this)

Kyoto International Conference Center

the want to gently take those i care about to a safe hovel in the woods and rest my head on them and make them feel safe. to make sure they know that my strength is there to protect them.

i am loyal to my last breath. i am as vicious as the unforgiving winter. my strength is yours, too. and only meant to hold you gently. never to keep you from venturing on your own. cause I know you are capable. but i want you to know that my strength is always there for you to dip into when you need it.

you are not alone. you do not have to fight alone.

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sometimes I bite during experiments so that they give me a couple jolts through my shock collar. just to feel something.

trying to navigate figuring out what content of wolf i am and what breed i am mixed with. but it is kind of triggering to sit down and think about it.

my brain is rejecting the idea that i should associate myself with dogs at all.

even though im sure im a low content wolfdog.

i hope one day i can love my dog side. and not run away from it.

i just dont wanna acknowledge that i am domestic in any way. it feels like its proving those who hurt us right.

like yeah they were right we are just some dog and trying to pretend to be feral at all is foolish.

but I know that i am feral and wild. i may be part dog but my feralness will always be stronger.

for now at least.

just until i can learn to accept that i am also part dog.

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RT-64 radio telescope - Kalyazin, Russia