“I’d Spent So Long Trying To Fit In, Trying To Be Someone I Wasn’t, That I Had No Idea Who I Was

Love's one heck of a thing.

“All relationships have one law: never make the one you love feel alone, especially when you’re there.”

— Unknown

The pain is overwhelming and there's nothing I can do or take to stop it. Cutting myself isn't enough.

Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vanessa Bell written c. August 1908

august 12

on days like this

i want to yell at you

i want to scream at you

push you around

and tell you that past me is hurting

and she’s crying on the ground

the old me is nowhere to be found

all because you picked up that phone

on days like this

i want to wish you misfortune

because for this past year

thats the only thing i got

on days like this

i want to kick and scream and cry

all because you hurt me

you hurt every inch of my body

and my head is now throbbing

with anger

you go on like august 12th is another day

on that calendar of yours

that you cross off

but for me august 12th

is the day i question my sanity

its the day i lost a piece of myself

is there anything i could have done

to change your mind

is there anything i could’ve done

to stop you from saying goodbye

august the 12th is the day i failed

to get closure from you

and august the 12th is the day

i wish i was never alive

Why is it that the people you want to stay wants to leave and the people you want to leave wants to stay?

Dejaré de creer en la bondad del corazón humano hasta que el mismo ser humano me demuestre lo contrario.

I will stop believing in the goodness of the human heart until the same human being proves me otherwise.

I would be whipped if I said them

“You’re so calm and quiet, you never say. But there are things inside you. I see them sometimes, hiding in your eyes.”

— Tracy Chevalier, Girl with a Pearl Earring

… I realized I’m an outsider again

I worked so hard to avoid this feeling

But it seems I always isolate myself with my mistakes

I put to much pressure on myself

and my relationships

leaving me to start over and once again,

be alone

- Divine