Can You Chase Away The Darkness?

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some people have pointed out how my gillion is very Creeture and yes maybe that’s because I’m not very good at drawing people but also. I creature-ify all my Little Guys. it’s a disease

No listen- LISTEN! He’s a cat boy. He literally eats rats. You cant silence me! No no you dont understand- no plea- *gunshot*

(Also, vyncent tried to dye his hair black when he got to prime to blend in more, but the purple bled through cause it was shitty box dye.)

Dear deities, I just CAN'T get over Charlie's performance in episode 79. I could ramble on and on about how the trials and how emotionally devastating it is... But nothing, NOTHING beats Gillion's monologue.

It's the way it starts off being quiet and Gillion's voice slowly creeps up in volume. The way it builds until the first "I hate you" and then EVERYTHING comes out, like the floodgates were just opened and he physically can't stop. It's painful for him to recall his memories as a child, failing over and over again. It's so agonising for him to describe his banishment, which must be so loaded with conflicting emotions. When he asks to be failed as Gillion Tidestrider, it's DESPERATE. And the fucking closing line...

"I'm sorry I couldn't be the chosen one you wanted. I'm not even the chosen one I wanted."

It's so cathartic yet it's not triumphant. Because Gillion has finally given himself some more room to express his own emotions after episode upon episode upon EPISODE of repressing it, making this a very satisfying moment!!! But uh, yeah, when you examine everything about the scenario and Gillion's own wording it's far from being happy. And I just think that's very neat because not every story takes that kind of care with their characters - they'll just expect characters to get over their trauma in one big hurdle and that's very much not how trauma works...

So anyhow just another messy tangent about the trials because I'm a Gillion fan so of course I'm gonna obsess over the segment that's just Gillion Tidestrider mental breakdown. Love this campaign. :)) My tormented blorbo. :))))

sounds about right

every time I think I'm normal about riptide I see a clip or fanart and start howling like a wild animal and attack whatever thing is nearest to me

I need to get ahold of myself because I almost just impulse-bought a life-size cardboard cutout of gillion tidestrider

“When I was a little guppy, they told me humans were greedy, self indulgent, destructive creatures who live their lives recklessly at the expense of others. But when I came here, I chose not to listen — when I boarded your vessel, when I was invited upon it by you and Jay, you took me aboard and I felt as if I could trust you.”

“Anyway, they told me a lot of things — not all of which have been true. The more time I spend up here with you, even Caspian, everyone I’ve met- even Edyn, the more I realize that they raised me to be a weapon.”

gillion in episode 15 vs in episode 63

maybe I shouldn’t be listening to jrwi out loud in the break room at work, I realize, as gillion tidestrider says “big daddy blast” in a booming voice

on that bucky barnes brainrot except I can’t draw humans. marvel fandom forgive me

ADDING THIS TO MY GILLY HEADCANON LIST

“Gillion has violent synesthesia and nothing makes sense”

That was a bit when Chip was reading Gill’s mind with the bracelets, but it’s such an interesting idea!!