Yurah By Saturn Tri'anon

What alternatives are out there to pinterest? I'm tired of dealing with the ai slop in everything.

Leriff Anduion (@notleriff) and Yurah Tsukino by amaipetisu

This is so average for most people, but for me... it's quite the difference (as you can see). I am a housewife, and I have a hard time motivating myself to do any kind of exercise, but today I walked. I walked and I enjoyed every moment listening to music in one ear and the frogs singing in the other.

The weather was perfect, and I felt so good about myself. Being outside in nature really cleared my head and I could breathe so easily with the fresh air. I feel so at peace, so calm and content. Fulfilled.

I am proud of myself for taking the first step. My hope is to do this at least 3 times a week, if not more. I would love to do it 5 times a week, but I know I need to start slow. My desire to get to a better weight and further from the diabetes that runs in my family is strong.

I want to be healthy, and I want to love my body.

Artwork by softlyvoiced

me: i love songs that are deep, hold meaning, tell a story, create elaborate images in my mind and move my heart while making me consider my own existence.

also me:

I took a hiatus in 2019. This is literally all I have to show for it.

Perhaps I am starting too many things at once.

I wish to find my place in my spirituality, but at the same time I wonder if my heritage would offer me anything. I am half Mexican/half Caucasian, but I was raised Caucasian and had little to no contact with my Hispanic family after the age of 3. Because of this... I know nothing about my Mexican bloodline.

I do not know anything about the culture, the beliefs, the celebrations, very little about the food, and I can barely speak Spanish. I want to get in touch with these roots, also. Part of me feels that I am too late, however, and pushes back against it.

How do I even start? Where do I begin? Do I postpone my spiritual journey and focus on my heritage instead? I am overwhelming myself, as I often do, and these past two weeks have been rather awful... it's all compounding and I don't know what to do to get back on my feet.

So when Careless Whisper comes on, do we all collectively just make as loud of a sound to mimic the saxophone as possible?

When the neighbor's cat comes running to welcome you home, walks you to the door, then tries to come in with you. I am the Cat Lady. I guess I got adopted.

This moon was difficult for me.

I am still working through it, but it truly did hike my emotions. I am tender, aching, and struggling. My depression has hit an all-time high and I am fighting to continue my progress. As long as I continue to do even the minimum, I am continuing on my path. Studying and looking into Paganism has helped ease my mind and give me hope.

I have succeeded in surviving every day so far. I will continue to do so, even if it is simply in spite of hardships