November Is A No From Me

slight delay in the 7 days 7 movies series, had a trip to go see WICKED! in a huge theatre in London, I'll post about that later! got a huge amount of work to do for tommorow but I'll be sure to post very soon!!!

oversharing online is so important cus like what if someone needed to know that

i met autumn by the cobblestone path while the trees bled onto the earth. she lingered for a while, kicking her shoes against the withering flowers, as the bittersweet wind filled the perfumed air of spice and firewood. 🍂

ig: rosenaufsuden

me who hasn’t posted in an annoyingly long time

sorry bois, bros, girls, people, guys, cats, dogs,otherkin and aliens - i’ve been more focused on school and mosque lately - especially with ramadan - i’m gonna try and make posts bi-weekly and que stuff up so my 42 besties have something to work with lol   feeling kinda shitty and wanting to squeeze something and watch the life drain out of it’s eyes - Amimi

november nutshell

26/11/22 nonsensical. as of writing this it's 1:18pm, my rooms a mess and i feel gross. this month has been really shit i'm not going to lie but i'll write about it anyways because who knows, it'll probably be a turning point that i'll look back on. there's been friend drama, dropping grades and a confession i stressed over for a year, took slander for and threw my exams away for, that boiled down to absolutely nothing. my efforts and tears meant nothing at all. i guess it's had it's good moments now and then though. like the BBC Share Your Story Tour! that visited my academy which was really unexpected and cool. i feel kind of numb after yesterday to be honest. i don't know what to think anymore. that aside, there's some cool things going on and things to look forward to. in art we're starting an independent project to test how well we work without support, simply being given a list of themes to choose from and interpret however we like. the theme i chose was telling stories. that sends me back to the BBC share your story tour in which the story of BBC Correspondent Navtej Johal really stuck with me. i decided i'll create work based off of not only fairytales and fantasy, fiction and myths, but real stories aswell and hopefully he replies to my email! my final piece for this independent project is what i'm the most stoked for, it'll be a popup book with a handpainted cover. whether it'll tell a story or simply be one spectacular scene i'm not sure yet, but i'm really excited to make something. there's also a trip to london i'll be going to with school! which will be super fun. thinking of all these cool things has really cheered me up, so thank you to the people who read these little posts and like because it makes me want to keep writing these, i'd love to see you in the comments and interact with you more! until next time! Amimi

Sorry for the wait!

i haven’t posted since new years. god i’ve been away a long time.              school has really kept me busy recently. especially since i’ve started  my art exam for gcses which has been excruciating due to being behind on coursework but i hope to do well! studyblr posts and such coming soon!

you know that awkward feeling when you try to forget something and you think you've gotten over it but then you dream about it and you wake up and you're like why me?, why now? that's been me every day for the past year. i hope at some point in the future i can look back at this and not even remember what i was talking about, in the present though this thing is driving me insane

manga lashes !!!!

i really dislike it when people don’t understand perfectionism.

like, it isn’t always “person who has tons of motivation and spends a ton of time making this thing *just* right”

wayyyyyy more often than not it’s:

”I know that if I try to make this thing, it won’t be perfect, so I simply won’t try.”

which definitely sounds bad, right? but when you realize that it doesn’t just apply to voluntarily making art, then you realize how perfectionism is not at all a good thing in any context. 

“i know that if I try to work on this assignment right now, it won’t be good enough, so i’ll wait until the last possible moment so that I have something forcing me to do it.”

”i know that I should start going to the gym, but I won’t see any improvement right away, so I just won’t.”

”i know that i should brush my teeth tonight, but that won’t be good enough to undo the fact that i haven’t brushed them 4 days in a row, so I just won’t.”

perfectionism isn’t the uncontrollable impulse to make things “just right”. (although it can occasionally manifest as this.)

perfectionism is the absolute, psychological inability to accept the concepts of “good enough” and “better than nothing”. even when you spell it out for yourself in a long text post like this.