Btw Bsd Intersection/overlapping Of Aromanticism & Polyamory Manga Of All Time To Me Specifically Because

the BEST ideas always come through when i'm brain rotting and half asleep

tysm for ur thoughts ily <3

dazai and akutagawa make me sick too (though i discovered today that i had food poisoning and did not, in fact, actually throw up from bsd angst)

dazai was only a couple of years older than akutagawa and simply perpetuated that cycle of violence that the world around them followed, one lost and deeply disturbed kid trying to lead another and idk that just makes it all the more sadder because the intention behind dazai's actions weren't even malicious. who is to say dazai did not wholeheartedly believe, like he did for himself, that akutagawa could find meaning in the port mafia?

dazai, who had assimilated in the darkness, who lived around blood and violence each day, how would he have taught akutagawa something other than all he's ever known in his life?

i don't know i just feel like we need more nuance in this discussion when it comes to dazai's abuse of akutagawa, which isn't to defend him at all but to realize that it was a horrible position for either of them to be in; where the blind lead the blind.

ao3 is such a surreal experience

just read the tags of a fic and scrolled past it like it didn't give me 30 psychic damage and made me lose my faith in humanity

shy mwah

AAAAAAAAA I LOVE YOUR DAZAI THEME

TYTY OOMF I LOVE MY TRAUMATIZED HATED BY GOD BABYGIRL DAZAI <3

needed to clarify my stance because idk i was worried it cld be misinterpreted as me defending dazai which is not what im going for, but rather view the situation more empathetically and see it for what it truly is: kids struggling to survive and hurting each other for it.

dazai and akutagawa make me sick too (though i discovered today that i had food poisoning and did not, in fact, actually throw up from bsd angst)

dazai was only a couple of years older than akutagawa and simply perpetuated that cycle of violence that the world around them followed, one lost and deeply disturbed kid trying to lead another and idk that just makes it all the more sadder because the intention behind dazai's actions weren't even intentionally malicious. who is to say dazai did not wholeheartedly believe, like he did for himself, that akutagawa could find meaning in the port mafia?

dazai, who is assimilated in the darkness, who lives around blood and violence each day, how would he have taught akutagawa something other than all he's ever known in his life?

i don't know i just feel like we need more nuance in this discussion when it comes to dazai's abuse of akutagawa, which isn't to defend him at all but to realize that it was a horrible position for either of them to be in; where the blind lead the blind.

before i officially finish this account, i need something to kick off the writer's block. i'll open up requests after this!

is it too early to kms

also yeah he'd probably make playlists for his friends and never be able to share them and just get reminded of a friend he couldn't be with everytime he hears his songs

him and dazai probably had a shared playlist from pm days to avoid fighting over the aux too and once he left it's just nvm im gonna take myself to the psych ward

low effort hcs : what music would bsd characters listen to?

everyone puts mother mother and tnbhd in dazai playlists but i can't stop thinking about how this guy would probably love 70s city pop. likes number girl and betcover!! as well. rotates between like five songs he's just obsessed with all the time.

he also feels like the exact type of mf to listen to the smiths and now it's canon in my head. 'there's a light that never goes out' is HIS song im convinced.

akutagawa is the kind of guy who would listen to visual kei. everyday that malice mizer is not on spotify he loses it a little. would also love classic goth. bauhaus, the cure, sisters of mercy, he likes all that shit. probably started with old panic! at the disco, it's that emo -> goth pipeline fr.

in my head chuuya loves rock. likes deftones but would be put off by the screaming. probably fucks with soundgarden, maybe sonic youth, rhcp, nirvana, alice in chains, the velvet underground. it just is the vibe to me. but most of all, i think chuuya would like jazz. chet baker, coltrane, miles davis. likes physical media and would spend a bit too much on records. listens to ultraviolence on occasion, i don't make the rules.

look me in the eye and tell me ranpo wouldn't love shibuya kei. lamp, pitcher56, 800 cherries, satellite lovers, roundtable ft nino. just the sort of music i could picture him listening to. would also love bossa nova. would listen to laufey. once again, i don't make the rules.

fyodor dostoevsky listens to only three kinds of music: symphonic metal, classical music and gregorian chants. this is true and real and you should believe me without question. i think he'd like opeth quite a bit as well. fyodor is also the kind of mf who hates when people refer to baroque or romantic compositions as 'classical'. Yes, he has the eras memorized. disgustingly skilled with most instruments. heard liszt play firsthand.

WHY do i have the spine of a middle aged man. hunchback of notre dame lookin ass. sitting? hurts. standing? hurts. lying down? ALSO HURTS BECAUSE MY MATTRESS IS FUCKING BROKEN. god why i'm just a teenage girl why am i suffering like this

has this been done already

being mad over mischaracterisation is so funny. because like how do you know. like were you talking to asagiri over the phone while i wrote this fic? have you communed with the divine gods of fan content to tell anyone that their way of seeing a character is invalid? im crying lol ts so funny

"the uwufication of chuuya" "the feminization of chuuya" and it's a fic or fanart where chuuya cries