I Just Wish I Was Dead Why Me I Never Asked For Any Of This. So We’re Just Here To Sufferer And Possibly

I am in control!!!!

I control my own life. I control what I eat. I control what I drink. I control my own actions. I control my own life.

I always felt like my life had to have a specific outcome to be worth enjoying and loving, but i am learning in this season that if we are to busy searching for the end we miss the process which molds us. I love my loneliness and i love creating myself constantly; i surrender to this present moment and surrender the rest. The best thing one could do is let things flow, detach from certain beliefs and ideas. Let yourself be. What is meant for you will come, no matter what. What is meant to be, will.

be your own influencer

Not my rock bottom era again

black girl th1nspo ❤❤❤

Meanspo (Personal)

Oh, yeah. Cause that’s attractive. Stuffing your face like a fucking pig. That’s definitely going to get them to like you. Why don’t you try, I don’t know, not eating?! You know you’d be so much skinnier if you’d stop eating all that crap. Put down the fucking junk food. It does nothing for you except make you fatter.

“But it tastes good,” you cry. Well you know what else tastes good? The taste of victory, of being thin. Of being able to stretch out your hand and feel like a fairy as you look at your long, slender fingers. Right now, don’t you feel like a pig? Who the hell is going to love you like that? You might as well just throw out all of those cute clothes you’ve been saving for the day you reach your goal weight. Might as well go stock up on baggy hoodies and clothes even larger than what you’ve already got. Because if you keep this up, all you’re going to do is gain and gain and gain.

I thought you said this time was going to be different. I thought you said you were actually going to do it this time. That you were going to be pretty. You can get there, I know it. But first you have to put down the food and try.

wanted to post this on it's own because i spent so much time on it...

Hello 2022

Hey my loves it’s now 2022, a whole new year, a fresh start. Whatever you have been wanting to do you can do it whether it’s the start of the new year or not you can change any time you want. DONT beat yourself up for wishing to start earlier, start now. If you’ve wanted to be an artist,fit, or whatever dream is you can do it. Things will work out for you.

Let’s do this 2022

I saw this skinny girl at the airport and it literally made me wanna die like if I had self control that would’ve already been me