medications don’t work the same for everyone.
therapy doesn’t work the same for everyone.
self care doesn’t look the same for everyone.
mental illness doesn’t look the same for everyone.
recovery is a personal process and shouldn’t be compared to anyone else’s. we are all healing from different things. just because someone else says, “my life has been bad too, and i got over it”, that in no way means you’ve tried less. you will grow at your own pace.
So...I, temporarily, deactivated my Instagram account just now. I also wanted to, temporarily, deactivate my Facebook, but then I remembered I helped run a page for a club I was in last year. This page still, occasionally, gets liked to this day. I’m not 100% sure how deactivating would affect the visibility of this page, so I’m just going to leave my account alone and, instead, log out out and delete the app from my phone.
I still feel pretty good about Insta though. Honestly, out of all my social media, this one causes me the most pain (lol). I found myself checking it more constantly. I would attribute this to the fact that the semester ended a couple of weeks ago, which has left me with more free time. I found myself comparing my life with other people’s lives a lot more than usual. This made me start feeling bad about myself and even made me forget about my own recent accomplishments. I also checked the page of someone I should not be checking on (I just know my friends are going to scold me when I tell them about this). This is, mostly, because it always ends with me getting my feelings hurt when I do. Long story short...did not go well. I saw something I wish I didn’t see that ended up crushing my self-esteem even more (learned my lesson).
Anyway, I think I really do need this break from social media (excluding tumblr of course). I’m going to use these next few months to really focus on myself. I’m going to make my physical, mental, and spiritual health top priorities this summer.
please, please and please.
Hey ya’ll!
It’s, definitely, been a minute...
I’m really sorry for the inconsistency in posts these past few months. Life got chaotic again, but I’m back (again) and in time for the new year.
I, finally, finished creating my 2023 intentions and vision board yesterday. I made my vision board the background for both my laptop and my phone’s lock screen. To be honest...I did not achieve a majority of my 2022 goals. Looking back at my 2022 vision board was painful. I was extremely disappointed in myself when I realized how little I accomplished on the list I created for myself at the beginning of last year. All that time spent for nothing...
However, I really feel like this year is going to be different. I’m feeling, cautiously, optimistic. I was a lot more specific with the intentions I included on my list, as well as with the images and quotes I chose for my vision board. I think that is going to be very beneficial in the long run.
Overall, I’m ready for 2023. I’m ready to stop settling for less than what I deserve out of life. I’m ready to stop self-sabotaging. I’m ready to stop getting in the way of my goals. I’m ready to stop letting other people’s opinions and negative energy get in the way of my goals as well. This year is going to be the year of focusing more on myself and putting myself first. This year I’m prioritizing my own needs. This year I’m being more selfish (and there is nothing wrong with that).
This is going to be a year of healing, abundance, and prosperity. I can feel it in my soul.
monday reminders:
– you are enough
– you don’t have to please everyone
– you will overcome this
– it’s okay to feel scared
– you are allowed to take breaks
– do what’s best for you, you’ve got this
Happy (and proud) to announce that your girl made it to the gym today :) Getting back into my routine was, surprisingly, easier than I thought it would be.
As for what I’ve been doing for my routine, I’ve been continuing with my slightly modified version of the tik tok famous 12330 workout. If you’re not on tik tok or just haven’t heard of the workout, the 12330 workout is a treadmill workout that was created by Lauren Giraldo. Basically, you walk on the treadmill on an incline of 12, speed of 3, for 30 minutes. I’ve been doing a 10330 (Incline 10, speed 3, for 30 minutes). I plan on working my way up, incline wise. I also plan on incorporating additional forms of cardio, such as the stairmaster and elliptical, just to switch things up and to make sure working out doesn’t get to tedious for me.
I also started incorporating weight training last month. Mind you, I am not an expert. I just do what each weight machine says and I pick the ones that target the muscles I’m trying to work.
I’m sure there will be more days and weeks where I have little to no motivation. But, I will just try to push through them, as I did this time around, and listen to my body and gauge how I feel as time goes on.
For now, what I’m doing works for me. I will post more details (e.g. types of weight lifting, diet, etc) when I start to see the results I’m aiming for and when I become more confident with sharing. :)
Stay well, friends.
Sola (she/her) | 29 | A journey of fitness and self love.
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