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ReBlOg n’ Go crAzY gO sTuPiD lose 25 pounds this month.✅❌🛑🖤🔒📌 AHHGGGGAGHHH!

i thought i was dead

i had a experience today where my body overheated i started to lose focus in my schoolwork my heart started beating so loud and fast and hurting like a mf and i thought “omg this is it this is how i die i am going to die in the middle of art class” then i decided to try to alert someone i tapped my friends thigh my breathing was shaky and loud and my face was red and tried to tell her “get the teacher somethings happening” all that came out was a scrambled mumbled sentence and i thought i was about to faint but she understand and the teacher got her to take me real quick and since she knew i was anorexic she got a proteing bar and made me eat that shit and the second i took a bite everything slowly started to calm down and i have honestly never been more terrified

dont take life for granted as someone with an ed it doesnt matter whether your bmi is high or low your heart can stop at any second

rb to yeet your weight off faster than you yeet food in your mouth ayy

I honestly and truthfully hate myself.

My hair:

I’m black and I get perms and I really wanna go natural. Told my mom and she told me that if u were to go natural all I would do was get made fun of. My relaxed hair grows so fucking slow and turns nappy really quick so when I get sew-ins you can tell the difference and I already get made fun of for that plus my fave is already fat and the only thing that makes it look slightly better is my hair. Yikes

My body:

I’m fat. I have scars everywhere. My thighs look like drum sticks. I have hip dips and that plus the way I already look makes me go from a 1 to a -12. I have stretch marks literally make me look so fucking disgusting and I have so many that I know that none of them are going away even when I lose weight. SOMETHING SO SIMPLE AS MY FINGERS ARE EVEN A FUCKING DISAPPOINTMENT. my fingers couldn’t be fucking normal and straight and have of them if curved. My fucking nails are just annoying. My sister lifted my shirt and goes oh I thought ur stomach plugged out a lot more than that.

My skin:

My pores are fucking huge. Every time I shave you can see the pores in my leg from a mile away and it looks like a have a fucking disease, I have bad hygiene and I don’t take care of my skin and it’s fucking disgusting.

My face:

My acne is so bad. My hyperpigmentation has literally ruined any confidence I had left. My teeth are ducked up and the adults in my fucking house hold refuse to get me a dentist appointment.my nose literally is a pig nose which makes it SOOOOO much better bc I am a fucking pigs. My eyes are this dull dark brown. Not that beautiful hazel color that everyone loves it just plain and fucking boring.

There is nothing for anyone to love about me. There’s nothing for me to love about my self.

I have the urge to manipulate someone

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

The smallest I remember being was somewhere in my 160s and I’m about to be in my 160:s IM FUCKING PROUD

I won the lottery. I do not care I’m winning the lottery and quitting my job and about to treat myself because I deserve it. Like i just know I won the fucking lottery no if and or buts cause I’m over my stupid ass job. I’m gonna reblog this Tuesday night when it gets released with the proof that I won the lottery. IM FUCKING RICH AND AND HAVE MILLIONS OF DOLLARS BECAUSE I SAID SO. Purr…

Ignore this. I’m just using my anger to persists my money affirmations.

you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be granted but only if you reblog

Tomorrow is the start of something new and good.

Tomorrow is the start Of not dealing with my crazy sister trying to make me eat and become crazy obese to the point where death is one pound away.

Tomorrow is the start where I will be happier and I won’t be afraid to check the scale because I know I’m losing weight.

Tomorrow is the start of my self love journey.

Tomorrow is the start of a better me.