Is It Intrusive Thoughts Or Do I Actually Want To Kill This Bitch? Yea No It’s Both.

Choso is agitated; not really, because OC took his hair ties, but she doesn’t care.

I was about to say life works in mysterious ways but no it doesn’t. I’m that powerful. Girlies don’t judge me but I was letting the 3d affect me for a hot second until I realize I controlled my reality cause im that bitch.So here’s a little success story.

I’ve been affirming i attract money and several money affirmations for the last couple of days. Just a little side note in the last 3 weeks I have only worked 1 day for 4 hours. My check should have been less than 40 dollars because of taxes. I would say someone explain to me how my check was 200 dollars. BUT THATS BECAUSE I CONTROL MY REALITY AND SAID FUCK THAT I WANT MORE.

You control your reality. The other day I sobbed my eyes out at the 3d but I still saw results because at the end of the day I knew that I had everything I wanted because I control my reality.

🎉🎉🎉I REACHED MY ULTIMATE GOAL WEIGHT !!!🎉🎉🎉

I literally can’t believe it, this morning I stepped on a scale and I was 102 lbs and my UGW was 105! I weighed myself yesterday and I was 110 so it must have been water weight but OH MY GOD! I’m so happy this is crazy I did it?? I’m finally as small as I wanted, now all I need to do is maintain ?? This is honestly euphoric. May 28, 2018 is the day I became the skinny bitch I’ve always wanted to be.

3am manifestations

Maybe some of you are like me and didn't exactly know what you wanted in life but you knew you weren't happy at all and you just wanted everything to change. So a little quirk I have is that I gain a new hyperfixation on something wither it's a song or a game and I can create a whole story revolving around that specific thing if that makes any sense what so ever.

So I think I want to start this series where if you feel stuck in life and you don't know what you want but you want a change this series could open your eyes to your desired life/situations and include affirmations connected to the scenario. For example when a song create a new scenario in my head I would write it out and also list some affirmations.

ALSO this is inspired by @valleyhiraeth because a lot of my ideas come from me listening to music at 3am and just thinking about LOA and how it all connects. So big shoutout to her for inspiring me to start this series. I don't think this is a great explanation at all but it'll make more sense as I post.

I don’t want loose skin so I have a plan I’m going to lose 30-35 pounds with not eating then after that I’ll go back to normal and try to lose it normally. But now that I’m thinking about it I don’t know what normal eating is anymore I can’t tell when I’m over eating or under eating at this point since counting calories are so damn hard when everything you eat doesn’t have calories label or it’s hard to figure out FUCK MY LIFE

I eat 500 calories and I gain weight does life fucking hate me.

Goodnight

I don’t want any one crying at my funeral. No one. It’s not like anyone fucking cared when I was fucking living so why bother now.

I’ve 5 pounds since Wednesday and I got into performing arts. I’m actually so fucking happy

Skinny girl food/drink

Foods:

Salad (no dressing) (30kcal)

Broccoli (around 35kcal/100g)

Cauliflower (25kcal/100g)

Tomatoes (22kcal/avarage tomatoe)

Zucchini (16kcal/100g)

Strawberries (4 kcal each)

Berries (33 kcal/100g)

Carrots (44kcal/100g)

White rice (134kcal/100g)

Grapes (69kcal/100g)

Sweet pepper (20kcal/100g)

Sweet corn (84kcal/100g)

Apple (72kcal/ avarage apple)

Drinks:

Water and tea. Helps losing weight and makes you feel full.

Stay safe🖤