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you know you're cooked when you make a spotify playlist for a character

Going insane about kicked dog with rabies type characters

so embarrassing to get obsessed with your own oc but it doesn't fuel you creatively or motivate you at all you just sort of sit there. like yeah I've been thinking a lot about blorbo from my mind. no images of them exist in the world and they have maybe 3 personality traits so far. I would rather die than attempt to write about them. I've spent the last 48 hours rotating them in my brain though

Oh god I just realized how badly I need to update my pages

i love it when characters are codependent. i love it when losing someone feels like losing a limb. i love it when two people "complete" each other so wholly and terribly that one can barely function without the other. i love it when the fear of losing the only person who understands them is so all-consuming they'll destroy anything to stay together, including themselves.

just so you know i know this dynamic is toxic and i'm not romanticizing it :/ i'm actually sexualizing it

Thinking about characters changing their names.. characters changing their names to run from the past or to reclaim their selfhood or to deny something. Characters who don't remember their names. Characters who can't forget. Etc. And yes of course because they're transgender

to anyone missing my writing please know i am also missing my writing