Hm… No I Don’t Think Gertrude Was Feeling Cold And Uncaring When She Sacrificed Michael. I Don’t

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everyone’s tma ocs are named like “denouement” “parthenon” meanwhile the show canon is just. fuck it there’s two michaels and a mikaele. this guy’s tim and that’s john

new ask game: give me one of the fourteen fears and I’ll give you an anecdote about it

personally I’m keeping it lighthearted but y’all have free will so do what you like

Distortion headcanons, you say….? :)

Fractals usually seem to have a pattern where the iterations get infinitely smaller.

However, the hallways and corridors and things within the distortion do not appear to shrink infinitely or anything.

This is only because the person is essentially inside of the distortion and therefore is basically also infinitely shrinking at the same rate as the place around them. To them, nothing appears to change, if that makes any sense-

Also, the “center” of the distortion is probably referring to “C” in the equation for the Mandelbrot set (Zn+1 = Zn^2 + C), which is the starting value for the set.

Uhhhh And Uh uhm er

Mirrors

Y’know that cool effect that happens when you put two mirrors up facing each other? I think that’s why they’re in the distortion.

the shrinking fractal hypothesis is canon now btw. I just made it canon actually. that is the best explanation I’ve read for infinitely branching hallways that isn’t “it’s just like that”

this is why all of you need to go out and adopt math people into your fandoms. see? see the benefits? (yes I work a STEM job. that doesn’t mean I know shit about it)

anyway that unlocked a memory. as a young child I used to sit between two facing mirrors in my house and just stare while moving my arms so they looked all messed up and honestly I think that’s why I’m like This

good work everybody no more notes on this post 👍

hm… no I don’t think Gertrude was feeling cold and uncaring when she sacrificed Michael. I don’t think she just dusted her hands off and walked away. I think she was used to risky plans and close calls, even used to an occasional casualty, but her blood ran cold when she realized she was choosing to send one to their death. not collateral damage — a sacrifice.

and I think she tried to be as numb as possible, calculating, deciding, even as she knew deep down that only one of her assistants would walk straight into hell on her word.

and I think she found him a bit annoying before that. the jaded resent the naive — it isn’t fair, but it’s true. but by the time he brought her tea the next day, in her mind, he was already dead. everyone looks better dead. optimism, trust, loyalty all become virtues where they were once liabilities.

I don’t think she didn’t feel the gravity of her choice. I think she did it anyway.

and she did not hesitate.

Archivist go brrr

Me when i lie

(Added the full image description down here this time because it turned out way longer than usual):

[Image Description:

The first image is a digital drawing of the character the distortion from the magnus archives, with michael on the top facing to the left and helen upside-down on the bottom facing to the right, in the style of a joker playing card. The background is white, with warped colourful lines decorating the border. Michael and helen each have a hand in front of their faces; Michael is peeking through his fingers; helen is resting her chin on her palm. Their hands and fingers are elongated and their fingernails are overgrown and spiraling. They are wearing matching pink pinstripe suits, with spiral buttons and white dress shirts with spiral cufflinks. Helen has an afro hairstyle with a section on the left side of her head pulled back into a braid, and laid edges that form spirals along her forehead. Michael has long blond hair that falls in much looser curls across his shoulders. Both of their irises are pink with a spiral design in them. Their proportions are overall semi-realistic; a clean rendering style is used.

The second image is exactly the same as the first, just flipped 180 degrees to put helen on the top instead of michael.

End ID.]

this gutted me so badly on first listen that I had genuine difficulty liking Georgie afterwards. I get where she’s coming from, but oof. just straight up telling him that Melanie deserves healing despite the mistakes she’s made and he doesn’t. local guy cannot catch a fucking break

man. whenever jon sims is a relentlessly self-sacrificing martyr everyones like STOP IT YOU’RE NOT HELPING ANYONE BY GETTING YOURSELF KILLED. and then whenever he’s doing what he has to in order to survive everyones like YOU SHOULD CONSIDER STARVING YOURSELF AND DYING INSTEAD. guy cannot win.

my ADHD ass could never use a leitner properly even if my life depended on it. “read this specific passage to change the—” ok my eyes have already skipped to the bottom of the page. “one or two words is enough to—” and I zoned out and skimmed 2 pages so I’ll see ya later in the hell dimension