Post #30 - A Happy Mother’s Day W/ Character Sheets

Post #18 or 19 - Get Sans Right!

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okay, so as I was sketching out the next page of the comic, I had to stop! I wanted to really get a handle on Sans so I have less work to do when I'm drawing the finished draft—sure, that's part of it. Another part of it was this strong urge to just get him right for his sake. Like, really right.

So how the heck am I supposed to do that?

I went right down to the bare bones (ha!). I didn't want to get too influenced by all the very impressive fan art out there, and there's just too much to count on this very website, so I used the original Sans sprite as a reference (I realize my version appears as if his arms were cut at the elbows. We'll just silently ignore that...). I then drew a real skeleton because my brain has a hard time with properly tying the two together. I suppose what I mean is, I try to imagine what the monsters of the Underground would look like in our real world, and also with a more humanoid appearance, so when I see Sans I naturally compare him to what is inside our meat suit despite him being a cartoon who should have the freedom to flourish in his art style. Its hard, I'll tell ya that! But I made an attempt here to try something that aligns more with what I want for the comic.

Maybe this will be the final look? I love to see this version of Sans having a more urban fashion sense, aggressive personality, and a bad drug problem that leaks into all aspects of his life. I'm definitely pulling from the images I included in this post, and honestly? I think we need more poverty polish applied to his bones.

I kind of want to make a similar character sheet for more of the UT cast. All in due time...

Post #29 - Big News, Big Changes

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Finally, I’m here with the so-called big post! I might’ve overhyped this a bit, but that comes with the territory of having long stretches of radio silence. 

So what’s up?

I have decided to make changes to the direction of the story (again). Instead of the comic being the primary form of storytelling, it will be the fic instead. What does that mean for the comic? It will continue until chapter 10, and then we'll see where things take us. I rather start small so I can write a conclusive narrative within a reasonable time rather than attempt to manage something far too grand for my current abilities. Depending on how things turn out, I can always start another mini-series in this universe.

So, FAWN the comic will take place about a decade in the past from FAWN the fanfiction. Chapter 1 of the fic will be posted tomorrow, and once it is, I’ll update this post to provide the link. I have a little under 10 chapters written already, but if my brief obsession with Avatar this past month and a half has taught me anything, it's that I can pump out 50k words within five weeks if I really have my heart and soul in it.

To iterate, the fanfiction is not only going to be a rewrite of Lugubriosity, but it’ll continue the story. I know, I know, you might be wondering why would a cancel Lugubriosity in the first place then, and my answer to that? I simply wanted to write a more cohesive narrative, but I might’ve bit off more than I could chew when I initially pulled the plug. All I can do now is take it one step at a time.

The discord is in an unfinished state, but fuck it, I might as well post it so I can gather feedback regarding character backstories, world-building, and all. Below is the link to its beta state. I’m currently in the process of putting together a FAQ for the fic, and already gave a few questions their answers, but if you’d like to add your own, feel free to. I'll slowly piece it into a presentable state within the upcoming weeks.

New pages for the comic coming soon. Thank you to everyone who has been following this very slow journey so far! Honestly, if it weren’t for the pokes I get on Tumblr, I might’ve abandoned this project a while ago.

Discord Link

Fanfiction Link

i felt your vent but i bet it gave you more ideas right? can only go up!

Thanks so much for the encouraging words, and it did! I’m bursting with marketing ideas, and it’s honestly exciting, if not a bit scary. There’s a bunch of business shit I started this year, including the book I’m writing—which I have some interesting news about, so why not use this response to address it.

I’ve been weighing the pros and cons of connecting my author pen name to this account (or the fanfic account). The book will be out for ARC in July (if I stick to schedule) and published by late August. It will have a lot of the same elements I typically write about; a ton of body horror, monster men, and all the dramatic feels. Great, cool, but I’m aware that a lot of people who read fanfiction might not be interested in original fiction especially from a no name debut author. I was this way for a while until I rediscovered my love for book stores, found out there was a whole flipping genre of novels that had all the messed up stuff I like—told primarily by indie authors, and quickly became a book hoarder.

I say all that because I’m questioning if it would be worth it to “expose” my very spicy fanfiction to any future readers if those who enjoy the fanfics aren’t exactly the same audience who will enjoy my novels. Again, I’m using a pen name, and if the business goes well, I’ll be self employed, so I don’t really care too much about my personal life getting thrown in the mix. I guess I’m worried about not being taken seriously as an author, or who knows?

Bah! This is becoming a personal blog! I haven’t even posted the next page of Fawn, yet I’m doing a whole lotta venting. I might just share the novel regardless. I will need a few beta readers in June, so maybe Tumblr is a good place to find some?

I’ll gladly include the backstory for all three images for @alikthemurdercat! Which by the way, I want to thank you dearly for liking my posts and following my page. :)

This story starts with a young human woman named Laura who had recently moved from her grandparents home in the forest after she graduated with her nursing degree. Laura was only on her second day at the job when she was given a strange patient; a skeleton monster who had recently been arrested for getting into a physical altercation with his now ex girlfriend which resulted in a few minor injuries for him. Not so much for his ex girlfriend. Such a thing shouldn’t result in an assailant in custody dodging a holding cell for a hospital bed, but this skeleton was the brother of the newly elected governor, and that came with its perks. He was quite, but watched her with a smile.

Laura wouldn’t know better at the time, having no clue about his arrest as he was not handcuffed. So as she tried to remember what the seasoned nurse she was to shadow instructed of her—said nurse was off taking care of another patient as the hospital was severely understaffed—the skeleton man took a bite out of her hand out of seemingly nowhere.

Laura passed out.

she woke up two weeks later with a missing hand, and absolutely no idea what caused it. Her grandfather and a doctor appear shortly afterwards. She’s told she can soon head home, back in the forest, with her grandparents. As the two walk away, Laura over hears their conversation and discovers that while she lost consciousness, she was also raped, and the skeleton monster had gone missing. Unfortunately, the police weren’t making much of an effort to relocate him—likely due to his relationship with the governor.

As Laura and her grandfather drive home he tells her that her grandmother has a very special surprise waiting for her, and that despite her missing hand she is still as abled as anyone else. They will get through this together, he promises. She would just need to learn to give a mean knuckle sandwich with the other hand. Laura oddly feels nothing towards his words, nor her missing hand. She stays quiet as they make it higher up the mountain.

When they arrive at the cabin, it’s oddly quiet. Her grandfather makes note that all the lights are off and there is no smoke in the chimney. He calls for their German Shepherd who would often rush out the doggy door to greet him. No one comes. Her grandfather tells her to stay in the car as he goes to investigate, and Laura does just that.

She waits, and waits, and waits, but her grandfather doesn’t return.

It starts to get cold and unfortunately he took the keys with him to open the front door. Laura has no choice but to get out and go inside. As she climbs the porch, and opens the door, she finds the family dog lifeless by the mangled corpse of her grandmother. In the corner is a creature hunched over her disemboweled grandfather stuffing his face full of what was once a very kind man.

Laura runs, the creature follows. She makes it to the depths of the forest, too petrified to look back, but knowing it’s close by the rustle of the flora around them. There’s the shine of headlights in the distance. Laura screams, she trips, she tumbles. The creature lands on top of her, and as it sprays her family’s blood on her face, she is reminded of the skeleton monster in the hospital bed. She recognizes him completely despite his more disheveled look, and the loss of light in his sockets.

As she prepares to meet her grandparents in the afterlife, a shot goes off. It gets the monster at the tips of its skull which rains shards on her bloody face, and sends it running away in retreat. Laura can hardly move when a stranger enters her blurred vision. He offers her a hand to help her off the moist forest ground, and as she reaches up to grab it, she notices that it too is just pure bone.

Okay, so this is getting long winded, lol. I’ll need to add onto this to explain who that human man is in pic two, and also what the hell is going on in pic one.

Post #16 - Blast from the Past

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As I was going through old files, I found a lot of the artwork I've done for Undertale rps back on Discord. Man, weren't those crazy times that I miss dearly. Unfortunately, those serves no longer exist, so now these images only live on in folders on my computer.

I thought I'd share some with you to change that.

These are only three of many. A lot of the artwork wouldn't make much sense without context, but that's okay. If anyone would care to hear backstories of roleplay that only mattered to a group of 4, I'd definitely get long winded with you and share EVERYTHING--or at least that which I remember.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy this little piece of a time gone.

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What AU Should Fawn Be?

What AU Should Fawn Be?

As we are approaching the end of stage one, I decided that I would put a poll together to help with the decision on what AU to use for Fawn. Please feel free to vote and add your honest feedback! I will be keeping the poll up until stage four when the illustrations need to be finalized, so absolutely no rush.

If you would like to comment, but remain anonymous, type “Anon” and a series of numbers in the “name” text box. At the end of the poll, only the results will be shown.

Now the poll is unavailable?

Gah! I give up.

Post #14 - The Faces of Frisk

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I went to my first convention this past weekend. It was definitely an experience seeing people in cosplay in real life—I even dared to dress up. While there, I came across so much inspiration for my art that sparks flew through my brain. It was definitely a much-needed trip.

So enough of that! I have finally gotten around to sketching out different ideas for Frisk. These are just rough drafts that mainly play around with hairstyles, (she will still wear the signature bangs and bob. Option B is simply my fun little way of showing her face) and skin shades. I'm open to keeping her a Simpsons yellow too so anyone can easily see themselves in her—or maybe not considering her circumstances lol!

Either way, I think it would be fun to vote on it! (once I figure out how to create a poll, that is).

The previous poll appears to be neck and neck with a suggested AU and an original AU (based on the comments and the poll numbers). We will create from scratch to keep things simple while heavily referencing Underfell, that way we are technically doing both options. Below are the results.

Thanks again to everyone who voted! Once I figure out how to embed a poll in this post I will make an edit to include it. In the meantime, if you like any of the options, feel free to comment, and your vote or suggestion will be noted.

Edit: I’m stupid, all I had to do was edit this post to get a poll in—not create a whole new one. Hahaha…

Post # I Lost Count - Life Update? Yay!

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So, I’m aware this isn’t a personal blog, and I don’t exactly want to make it one of those, but I need to vent a bit, my friends have a lot going on in their lives that what I’m about to complain about will seem like small potatoes, and I don’t have any other social media. So, this Undertale Tumblr blog will just have to do.

For the last month and a half I’ve been attempting to get a business off the ground. I have all the documentations and legal whatnots, but what’s been holding me back is the flipping website. Maybe I’m cheap, maybe I’m just too prideful, but I decided I would build the site myself completely by scratch with zero knowledge of HTML, or CSS, or any of that. I’ve managed it. The little creative spirit in me picked up the basics after many hours of trial and error (now ask me to solve a simple math equation and you’ll see how intellectually inept I am). Amazing news, right? This website had its foot on my neck for weeks now, and this morning I was finally victorious!

Until I wasn’t.

I sent the site to my friend to test, and on mobile whenever you scrolled down it would zoom the page way out into the void. I thought I’d put back on my handy dandy hard hat and make a simple tweak here, and little change there—I fucked the whole thing up beyond repair, and I didn’t make a proper backup of the site, so now I need to start from scratch!

Well, not completely, but all the fancy code I added needs to be redone, and to be frank, um no. Not doing that shit again, so I’m just gonna have a basic ass website and call it day for now because the longer it’s taking me to mess with this thing, the longer I’m not launching my business. The little procrastinating, self-doubting, coward in me is super happy that I now have an excuse not to move forward and do this thing. Too bad since I spent too much money to just quit now.

All that said, I’ve been missing Discord lately. I’m currently only in one server, but I’d love to join another one, preferably something small and fandom focused. I’m fine with any of the fandoms I have written for (so far Undertale, Sonic, and TMNT, but you can add in ATLA too. Plus, I like some “adult” shows—whatever the fuck that means. Actually, I don’t watch much television, so that is a lie).

If anyone wants to send some servers my way I’d love that a bunch! I used to run several Discord servers back during lockdown, and I definitely do not want to do that again. Too much work that I currently can’t keep up with, but having a chill place to discuss fandom stuff, or creative projects, or fucked up websites that break on you when you change one line of code, is something I’ve been craving lately.

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So I know these posts are supposed to have 5 in them, but I got so cheeky with my art last night and this morning, that I'm gonna be a bit impatient with this one. Typical, huh?

Thoughts on the narrator? Is he too annoying? I feel like he's annoying.

FAWN: Chapter 2

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